"Is it true? I have never heard about it." Brandon was surprised and stopped eating.
Mrs. Madden nodded and looked worried. "It has lasted for a period. I didn't tell you because you have been unwell. I was afraid that you would be worried after you knew it, so I hid it from you. I thought that Clarice would recover gradually, but she still hasn't recovered for so long. What's worse, she has lost a lot of weight."
'As a mother, I should have felt heartache when I see my daughter be like that.
'However, I have never felt slightly heartache when I see that she is unhappy and loses weight every day. It's strange.
'I know that it's wrong to have such thoughts as a mother.
'But it's the fact that I don't have much affection for her.
'No matter how I feel, I'm still her mother and need to care about her.
'Even though I still don't have much affection for her up to now, I have hoped to reunite with her for more than twenty years.
'I will take responsibility as her mother.
'It's strange indeed. When I face her, I really don't have much affection for her. I had missed her and owed her a lot all the time. After she comes back to me, I should have loved her more. My sense also tells me that I should do so.
'But I can't make it. It's the fact that I don't have much affection for her. However, every time I see photos of little Clarice, my heart is filled with affection.
'I don't know why.
'Does it mean that I only love little Clarice?
'How can it be possible?
'It's unreasonable!
'No matter when she is a little kid or an adult, she is all my daughter.
'Does my affection for my daughter disappear as she grows up?
'It's not scientific at all. I don't know why and can't figure it out.
'Thus, I have deeply suppressed my strange emotions in my heart all the time and have never expressed it in case Clarice feels sad after she knows that I don't have much affection for her as her mother.'
For a moment, Mrs. Madden was lost in thought.
Brandon didn't know his wife's thoughts. He said, "I guess that Clarice has become like that because of what happened in the ward last time."
Mrs. Madden fell into a trance. "Do you refer to what I said in your ward on the day when Sydney had a news conference?"
Brandon nodded. "That's it. That day, we suspected that Sydney was the real Clarice. You said that you didn't have much affection for Clarice after she came back. When she heard that, she ran away sadly. She didn't cheer up until we comforted her for a long time. I guess that she still minds it though she looks fine on the surface. Thus, she has had nightmares."
Mrs. Madden frowned. "But it happened long ago. I thought that she had let it go. Unexpectedly, she still remembers it."
Brandon patted the back of her hand. "It's understandable. She has separated from us for more than twenty years. However, after she reunites with us with difficulty, we suspect that she is our daughter. Besides, as her mother, you don't have much affection for her. Of course, she minds it. She may think that she shouldn't have come back."
Hearing that, Mrs. Madden knew that she was wrong. She sighed. "Need I to go to see a psychiatrist? I don't know why I don't have much affection for her. Before she came back, I anxiously hoped that she was still alive. However, after she comes back, I..."
Mrs. Madden looked at her hands and doubted herself. "Am I sick?"
Brandon looked at her.
To be honest, he didn't understand his wife's thoughts either.
But he knew his wife well and was sure that she wasn't sick.
As for why she treated Clarice like that, he thought that it was because she hadn't gotten used to getting along with Clarice.
Thinking of that, he comforted his wife.
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