“How am I supposed to trust you? Caspian saw you going out with him in secret with his own eyes! Just to avoid things going awkward between us, he chose not to tell me the truth.”
Larry added, “I now know why you wanted to go back to Nirhaven College. That's where you can spend time with him. Why didn't you tell me you were dining with him that day? Why didn't you tell me that he was at Nirhaven College too? If there's really nothing going on, why are so many people talking behind your back? Joan, tell me! Explain yourself to me!”
Just when she thought she had the world, the pain in her knees reminded her otherwise. It seemed to be mocking her choice of the man that she sacrificed everything to love. It also served as a warning, that everything that had happened wasn't a nightmare, and was real.
Clenching her own sleeve, Joan sought solace within her own heart. With an expressionless face, she replied, “Since you already have an answer, why do you bother asking me.”
Larry let out a gut-wrenching laugh. It was so sharp that it seemed to pierce both their hearts. With his bloodshot eyes, he declared, “You admitted it, Joan! You admitted it!”
“Larry, ever since we got back together, I never expected both of us to fall apart like that. In my mind, I thought that we had been through everything. But I was wrong. We don't seem to be on the same ground. You trust yourself more than you trust me.”
Gritting her teeth, Joan pulled herself up with the support of a chair. As tears rolled down her cheeks despite her best efforts to stop them, she pursed her lips. “Let us calm down. We should... take a break.”
In the end, she didn't even remember how she left the house that day.
Her pain slowly emanated from her heart and quickly tore through every fiber of her body, to the extent she was numb.
Before the matter reached the ears of Finnick and Vivian, she decided to drop by first. Coincidentally, both of them were not at home. Only the nanny was there, watching over Leslie.
When the nanny saw her, she warmly greeted Joan and invited her to see Leslie. Hence, Joan approached carefully.
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