Awakening Rejected Mate & Following Fate novel Chapter 9

"He can choose to sever the bond if he wishes, but history has shown us that mates who do... both die! The only other option is denial to consummate. They choose to walk away, no mark is made, no union at all, and deny the bond completely. It will never die, and they will live lives craving what the other can give them, no matter who they end up with. IS that what you want for your son?"

All eyes turn on Juan, so much tension in this room as the elders internally talk so that I cannot hearthem. Colton paces and I can tell he too is privy to what is being said. They are his pack after all, and two are his blood. Father and Uncle. He doesn't seem happy and the waves of his anger are all lapping over me and affecting my own sanity. Dampening the heat, replacing it with his rage.

I can't take it anymore, as minutes tick by and my nerves fray to the point I feel like I may scream, some internal burst of nervous crazy wooshes out.

"I'll leave. I don't want this either." I blurt it out, into the deathly silence as hysteria gets the best of me and literally every single face turns to me in shocked response like they

suddenly remembered I was here in this corner.

I know I just spoke out of turn and disrespected everyone in this room, but I'm sat here wearing my own dried blood, shredded emotions and exhaustion pushing through. My heads a mess, and in the space of thirty minutes I discovered that being a virgin doesn’t mean you cannot get crazy urges to strip naked and jump someone's bones, even if that someone you previously avoided like the plague. I've pictured him naked at least twice without even meaning too since he gave me every intimate one of his memories and some of those are him showering.

What?

"What?"

Both Colton in my head and his dad verbally, in unison and I panic that I just spat this out loud.

"It was the plan, my intentions. I mean after my ... the urn, tonight. My turning. I was leaving. Going away and it doesn't have to change." I sound insane. Babbling like a fool with verbal diarrhea and aware of the way all eyes are eating up my weak presentation of my crap contribution. I should have just run when I had the chance and screwed the running ceremony.