"I..." Xue Ning wanted to say that Jiang Daoran was her happiness. But she knew that she didn't have a place in Jiang Daoran's heart at all.
"I got it."
She squeezed a smile out and started eating the food that Jiang Daoran placed in her bowl. This was the first time he did that for her.
She thought it would be delicious but it seemed a little sour now. She wasn't sure if it was because the food wasn't fresh or if it was because she was crying. It felt terrible.
"I've always known," Xue Ning continued to eat and talk without looking at Jiang Daoran. "You only have her in your heart and I would never be able to replace her. In fact, I've never thought of replacing her spot in your heart.”
"And actually, I really admire her for sacrificing so much for you. I also envy her for having that chance to sacrifice that much for you.”
If she were the one who had to make that decision, Xue Ning felt that she would have made the same choice without hesitation.
Jiang Daoran didn't know what to say.
Fifteen years had passed and they were fifty now. After living for so long, it was too tiring to talk about the past.
"Don't worry, I've given up," Xue Ning's tears fell even faster. "I just can't help crying, you don't have to bother about me."
She continued to eat mouthful after mouthful of food. She had worked hard to learn how to cook all these dishes and only dared to ask Jiang Daoran over to eat after she had tried cooking them several times and made sure that she was up to standard.
But in the end, Jiang Daoran still told her to give up.
She seemed to have given up a long time ago, but it also seemed like she never gave up.
"Xue Ning.” Jiang Daoran was feeling really awful inside. ‘Tm sorry."
"You don't have to apologize, you didn't do anything wrong." Xue Ning squeezed a smile out. "It's my fault. If I didn't fall for you, then everything would have been alright."
"Finish the food today? Please? Just this once?"
Xue Ning looked at Jiang Daoran and she sounded like she was pleading with him.
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