Bullied By My Alpha Stepbrother novel Chapter 64

Jasmine

My vision felt blurred as I stared at myself in the mirror. I felt confused and angry at the same time. Why did he have to continue taking advantage of me that way? It had been weeks since the incident but somehow, I wished that Hardin had actually changed.

"It is probably not happening,” I muttered out, rather sad, and took a piece of tissue to clear my nose. I washed my face in an attempt to somehow free my emotions and then I walked out from the bathroom.

I needed to think up something. Hardin didn't understand the consequences of what he had done. I did not want to care if the full moon effect took a toil on him.

There was nothing that I could actually do, it dawned on me. And as I tucked myself into the duvet trying to sleep, I hoped that somehow I was going to forget that Hardin had released into me that night, and that I could not take any pill to prevent whatever effect that might arise as the last thing that I wanted to do was to visit the pack doctor to get pills.

What exactly was going to be my reason for wanting to take pills? There was so much that I was going to have to answer.

Still immersed in my thoughts, I had no idea when I had drifted to sleep.

Soon it was morning, I got ready like any other day and decided to grab lunch with Nadia.

"Hey girl, what have you been up to lately? You look so pale. Is there something you don't want to share and it's bothering you so much?" She asked worriedly, immediately she saw me.

"I am fine," I stuttered a bit and she shot me a suspicious look. I tried to tell her all what had been going on with me but I just couldn’t bring myself to say it. Did I want to talk about Lorenzo’s mental abuse or Hardin’s sexual abuse? I was so confused that I didn’t even know who to talk to or what to do.

"Then why did you ask me to lie about your whereabouts to Lorenzo?” She probed and when I didn’t reply, she continued, “You know what girl, when you are ready to let it all out just come to me. My arms are always open and my ears are ready to listen to all your worries," She held my hands softly and that guilt surged in that I almost had that split confidence to confess to her but… it was just for a second, nothing more.

"Let's go," I said to her and that was mostly how our day went, with my attempt to distract my mind. It was just so sad that it could not last when I had gotten back home.

I had noticed something strange so far, Hardin had been ignoring me for a while and anytime our eyes met, he gave me a look of apology which left me a little bit confused.

'Was it that he was suddenly regretting forcing himself into me on the night of the full moon? Or did he by any chance realize that he had released inside of me without protection?' I questioned myself multiple times but I couldn't think of any other scenarios.

"But still, he didn't come to me and apologize for what he had done!" I reminded myself which almost made me hate Hardin the more. Did he always have to be so proud and arrogant about his status that he didn't consider the feelings of others?'

I sighed heavily as my back rested on the bed. I just had to let it go. It had happened already, there was no need for me to trouble myself too much. Besides, it was a part of Hardin that I should have gotten used to already. I was the fool for even getting surprised about his actions.

In hopes, I tried to console myself but I still felt that something was wrong which I could not place my hands on. A start was, I had continuously felt dizzy while I was with Nadia. But we had concluded that I was stressing myself and that I needed to spend more time resting.

A knock came on my door which made my eyes snap open as I stared at the white ceiling. Slowly my brain awakened and I got familiar with my surroundings. I had drifted to sleep from thinking so much.

"I was asked to call you to the dining room," The maid at the door had said, and it was when I glanced at the clock that was on the wall, that I realized that I had slept for a long time.

I slowly got off the bed and made my way to the door, arriving at the dining room to meet Mom and Russo already laughing over dinner.

I greeted and pulled out a chair for myself. Russo simply nodded at me in response as his attention was focused on the grilled meat and salads on the table, while mom did not stop with all the sweet compliments just to bring out a smile on my face.

Just as I picked a piece of grilled meat to eat, I felt a presence beside me and I knew who it was.

"Father," Hardin's voice flooded into my ears and memories of our last encounter played in my head like a broken stereo disc.

“I got informed that you called for me.” He took a seat beside me, causing my heart to increase, which greatly contradicted the silence that was in the dining room as only the sounds of knives hitting the places could be heard.

"Son, when will I get the news that you have finally found a mate?" Russo’s cold voice broke the silence and my hands froze a bit but I quickly composed myself as I tried to ignore Hardin’s gaze.

"Soon father," He said slowly but the next thing that happened was a bang. I also did not see it coming.

"How soon is 'soon', Hardin? Isn't this the ripe age to get your mate?" His voice thundered in the dining room.

"Father please calm down," Hardin uttered and Russo shot him an amused look.