Looking at those big words, Serena's feelings were very complicated.
She had had an inkling that Kieran felt something for her.
But since he had all along acted like a reliable friend, she'd thought she was mistaken.
It was not until now that Serena understood his scruples.
Carefree as he seemed, the innermost part of him was battered.
His smile had been so warm and bright when he was with her.
"Serena, I brought you the best kiwis. Have a taste."
"No."
"Serena, I bought these earrings for you when I went shopping with my mom. You must look beautiful in them."
"Keep them to yourself."
"Serena, you like flowers? I've brought the orchids from my grandpa's garden for you. Look."
"I don't want it."
Every time he'd tried to please her with something she liked, she'd rebuffed him coldly.
Now she wondered whether he'd been beaten up for digging his grandpa's orchids.
And had he spent all his allowance on the earrings?
Turning him down had always been easy for her, but now words eluded her.
His usually smiling eyes were now full of disconcertion and dejection.
He looked too brittle to meet another rebuff.
Ten years he had spent protecting her.
But the cruel thing was that she'd never felt anything beyond friendship for him, even before she'd figured out her feelings for Avery.
She loved Avery not because of that promise or anything else.
She loved Avery for who he was and telling Kieran it herself was cruel.
"Kieran, I'm sorry. I..." She stammered, "I love Avery. It's always been him."
Kieran's lips broke into a dry smile. "It's time to quit, isn't it?" His voice was almost inaudible.
His smile was as perfect as before but his dimmed eyes betrayed his agony.
"I'm so sorry. I don't want to hurt you." Serena said. It was distressing for her to see him like this.
"It doesn't matter. I feel better to have said it. Serena, can I ask one thing from you?"
"Yeah, what's it?"
"Can you give me a hug?" He said serenely.
Serena stretched out her arms and wrapped them around him.
Feeling her breath on his neck, he tightened his trembling arms.
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