Carl's questioning reminded Jessica of all the things in the past. She was completely overwhelmed.
Every time she thought about those bad memories, she felt extremely painful.
When people were in pain, they wanted to have an outlet.
And the best way to do it was to hurt someone around them.
"Did you ever think about my feelings when you went abroad? You left me alone, and it was really painful. I can't start a new relationship even after years you've left!"
As Jessica continued, Carl's courage and strength were gradually shattered.
Every time this was brought up, they would both feel hurt.
They didn't get over it.
They were still stuck in it.
Carl was repentant, and Jessica blamed him.
Carl wanted to restart this relationship to make up for it.
Jessica also wanted to get back together, but she still internally resented him.
In a relationship, when you hurt your lover, you only received the same hurt. Unless you had never loved him.
Or it would definitely hurt your feelings.
"So," Carl smiled self-deprecatingly, "you said you wanted to get back. Is that because you want to give me a taste of my medicine?"
"Yes," Jessica replied at once as if she couldn't wait to tell him she only wanted to get back at him.
Carl's eyes darkened.
Just like a light went out.
Jessica stared at his eyes, feeling somewhat sad.
But she also felt relaxed.
She even felt that they were supposed to end up like this.
They couldn't be happy together.
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