James ordered a small private box. There were several empty wine bottles on the table in front of him. However, after drinking so much, he was not drunk at all. Instead, he became soberer.
The walls of the box were made of glass. As long as he raised his head, he could see the colorful lights and lively crowd outside.
He drank up another bottle of wine again. He was annoyed, so he threw out the bottle and smashed the TV opposite him. The screen was broken into countless pieces and fell to the ground.
He didn't even blink his eyes. Instead, he raised the corners of his mouth and chuckled.
So what if he had so much money? He was still a failure. No one believed him in that matter, including the person he loved.
Ha-ha...
Therefore, people really couldn't do bad things, nor could they have evil intentions. Look at him. He had been punished, hadn't he?
At this time, he was like a hedgehog. He could only find a corner, hide alone and suffer the agitation and pain on his own, and he didn't know what to do.
After a long while, he raised his hand and wiped his face hard, and then took out his phone.
He swiped open the screen. There was no missed call or message on the screen.
He smiled mockingly and then found Xavier's phone number.
The phone was connected soon.
"Jimmy, what's up?" Xavier's voice was still bland on the phone.
James opened his mouth. Suddenly, he didn't know what to say.
"Jimmy?"
James took a deep breath and coughed lightly, "Yeah, this is me."
"What's the matter?"
"Nothing. I just... wanted to call you all of a sudden."
"Your voice sounds strange. What happened?"
Hearing Xavier's unemotional but concerned tone, James closed his eyes and said with some difficulty, "Xavier..."
"Huh? What's wrong?"
"Do you... blame me?"
Xavier paused for a moment, "Why are you talking about this again? Didn't we agree not to talk about it anymore?"
"I know, but..." James looked at the broken TV opposite him, "I always thought you had got better, but now you can't get married because of this..."
Well, he was guilty, and he always thought that Xavier had recovered. After all, Zena once told him that she went to the hotel with Xavier, and later, they were even about to get married.
Although Zena talked about Xavier's condition in the bar at that time, he only thought that she was talking nonsense after getting drunk. Although he suspected that Xavier hadn't got better, he did not think too much. At this time, what should he say?
But just as what he had said to Elizabeth in South Lake, he couldn't tell everyone about his guilt. He was sad and self-condemned, and no one believed him. He was overwhelmed by the sense of powerlessness and remorse, but he didn't know what to do.
"Jimmy." Xavier sighed, "Everyone has his own destiny. This is my destiny. Besides, love depends on fate. There's no fate between Zena and me. That's all. I've gotten used to being alone for so many years. This is actually a good result."
James smiled feebly, "How could it be good? If it weren't for that thing, you would get married in two days. I'm sorry..."
He said sorry so easily.
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