Zena couldn't care about the sarcasm in Xavier's words. She nodded repeatedly, "Really! Believe me!"
"So... are you paying a debt of gratitude?"
Hearing this, Zena only paused for a second. Then she immediately shook her head, "No." She forced a stiff smile, "How can you think like that? I... was willful before indeed, but you know how much I love you. I've loved you for many years. How could I give up my affection towards you all of a sudden?"
"Of course." She added, "This time, you don't want me to leave. Didn't you... let someone bring me here? You also love me, don't you?"
"Look! You love me, and I also love you. If we are together, I will love you more in the future."
"Ha-ha." Xavier suddenly chuckled.
His laughter was originally very low, like a sigh. However, he laughed more and more loudly, and even his body was shaking.
Hearing his laughter, Zena was at a loss, "Xavier, you..."
"Do you love me?" Xavier stopped laughing.
He pointed at his nose and asked Zena.
Zena pursed her lips and nodded gently.
"You don't mind that I can't give you the life you want anymore? Including..." Xavier thought for a moment, "Bedtime?"
Hearing this, Zena's face changed. She was so embarrassed that she felt uneasy all over.
After thinking for a while, she said, "Xavier, I thought too simply at that time and hurt your heart. But... these days, I really understand a lot. Many people live their lives without sex, don't they? Even if... you still can't make love with me in the future... I don't think it's a big deal."
Xavier smiled, "So, should I thank you?"
"Xavier, can you stop talking like this? You've asked someone to bring me here. This..." She couldn't help glancing at Xavier, and then continued, "Doesn't this mean that you love me? I made a mistake, but as long as I can change myself, it'll be okay, right? I have liked you for so many years, and all those feelings are true. I believe you can feel my love. If we can still be together, I think this will be the best thing."
Seeing that Xavier didn't speak, Zena bit her lip, plucked up her courage to stand up and walked to him, "Xavier..." She squatted beside Xavier and said with a tender face, "I was wrong before. We..." As she said this, she reached out to hold Xavier's hand, "Let's start over again, okay?"
Just as she finished speaking, Xavier suddenly shook off her hand. She was not on her guard and fell back on the ground immediately.
Before Zena could scream, Xavier said coldly, "Start over again? What do you think? Can we start over again?"
"Xavier..." Zena was stunned. It seemed that she didn't even know how to stand up. In a daze, she watched Xavier take out a wet towel and carefully wipe the hand that she had just pulled.
Zena opened her eyes wide as a chill ran down her spine.
In the past, before they broke up, even if he couldn't have sex with her at that time, they always held each other's hand and hugged each other. He had never behaved like this, as if she was so dirty that he even felt disgusted when he touched her.
After wiping his hands clean, Xavier threw the wet towel into the trash can next to him. Then he turned his head and squinted at Zena who was still sitting on the ground, "No."
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