Zena pursed her lips and stared at the ceiling for quite a while. She was in no hurry to say yes or no.
After a long while, she murmured, "How long... have I been here?"
"Three days. At that time, you bled a lot, and you were in a bad condition. Fortunately, you are fine now."
Zena closed her eyes and smiled gently, "Tell me. Why didn't I just die?"
The warden was shocked, but she had seen all kinds of people because she had been working here for many years.
So, she came to sense soon and said, "Don't think like that. You are still young now. I roughly know what kind of person you used to be. Maybe you can't stand the completely different life now, but you are still young and capable. What you have to do now is to reform yourself well, and then you can strive to be released as soon as possible."
Zena laughed mockingly, and then shook her head bitterly, "No, my life is over." "You..."
Before the warden could finish her words, Zena said, "Today... no, three days ago, the man I love... came to see me."
Saying this, she smiled again, "He came to see me for the first time. You don't know how happy I was at that time. The room was so cold and so dark, but when I saw him, I felt as if I had seen the sun. The surroundings seemed to have become bright and warm all of a sudden."
"I... did a very bad thing to him before, and I regretted it very much. But... in order to get him, I felt that it was worth it. Even though he was struggling in despair and pain, I kept that secret alone. Then, I stayed by his side and loved him even more."
"Maybe I was so eager to get him quickly. In short, I was once very close to him. We... almost got married. But... I became greedy, so I left him again. I even... despised him."
"Thinking about it now, I think I was so ridiculous. I did so much just to get him, didn't I? But I gave up on my own."
"Now I... really regret it, so I asked him... if he could be with me again after I went out, but he refused me. He said that he had fallen in love with another girl. He even... said that he had never loved me, even if it was just a little bit."
"He wanted to get married with me just to repay me for my company and care when he was having a hard time. He felt that he owed me, so he had to be responsible for me."
"Ha-ha... I don't want his guilt or responsibility at all. Since I met him, what I want... has always been his love."
"The most ridiculous thing is that he met the girl he liked because of me. If I hadn't specifically kept his things in that house, how could they have met each other?"
"I did everything I could think of for him, didn't I? But I didn't get him. I became like this, and even pushed him to another woman..."
"I said I wish that he and that girl could be happy. In fact... I don't want them to be happy. What I want is to be with him."
"But... no matter how unwilling I am, what can I do? My life has been ruined, but he has a bright future. I am suffering now, but he is enjoying chasing after the girl he likes. We could have been together, but we will be strangers in the future..."
Maybe she said these words to the warden, and maybe she said to herself.
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