This was the first time Julie had been angry like this since the hospital incident five years ago.
Even when she proposed the divorce to Kieran back then, she hadn't bared her emotions like she was doing now.
Having asked the questions and vented her feelings, Julie was ready for an answer. She wasn't about to turn around and leave. Instead, she stood opposite Kieran, waiting for his response.
Yet Kieran remained silent, seemingly deep in thought.
After a long silence, he suddenly looked up at Julie and asked, "Would you marry someone you don't love?"
"No, that’s why I married you," Julie replied firmly, without a trace of dishonesty.
She said, "I was so blinded by love that I was willing to marry you even though you didn't love me. I thought it was enough as long as I loved you deeply, but I forgot that you could fall in love with someone else."
Julie's tone was filled with the indifference that comes with extreme disappointment.
Kieran's deep gaze remained fixed on Julie's beautiful face.
Her face was now tinged with a blush from the recent outburst of anger, and there was no warmth to be found in her clear eyes.
Kieran and Julie gazed at each other for a long time before he finally spoke.
He said, "Julie, I wouldn't either."
He wouldn't what? Not believe in love or marry someone he didn't love?
Julie didn't understand what Kieran meant by that.
All she knew was that he had called her Ms. Abraham, Attorney Abraham, and Joyce, but he had never addressed her as Julie.
Judging from Kieran's current expression, Julie knew he was serious. Very serious.
Feeling that his previous statement wasn't clear enough, Kieran added, "I wouldn't marry a woman I didn't love, no matter in the past, the present, or the future."
Marriage was no child's play, and he had always been serious about it. From the moment he married her to the moment he watched her sign the divorce papers, every decision he made was well thought out.
When he said he wouldn't marry a woman he didn't love, Julie's eyes welled up with tears, but the look in her tearful eyes was full of ironic laughter.
"So that's your answer?" she asked, staring at Kieran with red, tear-filled eyes, doing her best to hold back the tears.
"How fickle can a man be to say something like that?" she sneered at him, "Are you trying to say that you loved me when you married me?"
Of course, he loved. Who could force him into marriage or force him to choose a lifelong partner if he wasn't willing?
That's what Julie had thought at first.
But now, having heard Kieran's declaration, Julie's mocking smile widened, "Yes, you loved me. You loved me when we got married. But you stopped loving me after we got married because you fell in love with my bestie! Or perhaps, you loved me, but you loved Bertha more. So you never proposed a divorce. You were a faithful husband at home, but also a man who disregards morals outside. Your love is so great, so extensive."
"Bertha..." Kieran murmured the name, and then looked at Julie with deep eyes, asking her, "What do you think makes her worthy of my love?"
Exactly, what makes her worthy?
Julie had spent countless nights pondering this question.
But love itself doesn't have reason, logic, or coherence. She had loved Kieran for so many years, wasn't that out of reason too?
Her eyes were red as she looked at Kieran with a smile, "You might have forgotten. I was stupid enough to ask you the same question once."
That day, Bertha came to Noblewood Retreat with her pregnancy test report, knelt in front of Julie, and pleaded for her to let her keep the baby, claiming it was Kieran's.
Bertha might have thought Kieran was not at home that day because Kieran was supposed to be at work. But that afternoon, Julie had an appointment to go to the hospital for a check-up. Kieran could have left her alone, but he decided to work from home that morning.
Julie, not wanting to interrupt Kieran's work, went downstairs to watch TV.
Coincidentally, Bertha called to meet up, and the unsuspecting Julie warmly invited her to Noblewood Retreat.
But she never expected Bertha to tell her that she was pregnant with Kieran's child.
Bertha insisted on keeping the baby, saying Kieran had agreed to let her do it.
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