After some time had passed, Lothar returned with his takeaway. It was a simple meal with a meat dish and one vegetable dish.
He then said, "I know you're not used to such food. But please make do with it. If you prefer something else, then I'll go out and get it for you."
Selina accepted the lunch box, "There is no need for you to do that. It's like what you just said, let's just make do."
However, after taking two bites of the meal, she put down the lunch box.
"Does it not suit your taste? Let me go buy you something else."
Selina shook her head at this, "It tastes delicious, just that I don't want to eat right now. Besides, I'll have to go home for dinner tonight."
"You're going back home?" Lothar was taken aback by this news.
"My family home."
He hummed in reply, "Are you planning to tell your family then?"
Selina pressed her lips together.
"Lothar, my mind is in a mess right now. It would be better if you just let me calm down for a bit."
Lothar thought for a moment and said, "Why don't you go out and find a quiet cafe to do that? You won't be able to get peace with so many people walking around in the hospital."
Selina shook her head and said, "Here is fine, I'll just stay here."
The hospital was filled with smell of disinfectants which made her feel nauseous. But the nausea that she felt helped masked the overwhelming distaste she had for Matthew.
Time trickled by slowly.
It was already in the evening when she was ready to go back home.
Before returning home, she went to visit Yesseca.
Yesseca was having her dinner.
It was a very simple meal yet she ate it with much enthusiasm, as if having dinner was the happiest thing one could do in the whole world.
Selina felt hot tears in her eyes at the scene.
She recalled what Yesseca had said to her previously.
She said that Selina was who Yesseca yearned to be like.
Selina also recalled how Yesseca gazed out of the window, with eyes full of longing to step into the outside world.
Selina thought to herself, if she were to be bound to a hospital bed at such a young age due to some illness, she would probably go mad.
Selina left the hospital moments later.
She tried hard to put on a smile.
If someone like Yesseca had to fight to live her life healthily, Selina herself had no reason to not appreciate the life she had now.
The incident with Matthew would forever leave a scar in her heart.
And although it may hurt very much now, she would get better soon.
After arriving at the Whitlock family's villa, Natalie asked Selina why Matthew wasn't present.
She was silent for a while.
Then, she answered, "He has something to do."
She hadn't figured out how to break the news to the Whitlock family yet.
Natalie was a little worried and said, "Mom wants to have a good talk with both you and Matthew today."
To that, Selina simply replied, "There's nothing we can do if he doesn't come."
That night, Peter had brought Hayden out again for burgers and Coke. That was why Cecilia chose that night to invite Selina and Matthew over.
Hence, Cecilia was displeased by the news that Matthew was not going to show up to dinner with them that night.
At the same time, she felt that some of her assumptions were probably true.
Out of courtesy, Matthew would have attended the dinner despite how busy he was since Cecilia had personally invited him. Unless, of course, Matthew and Selina were no longer together.
And if the two of them had separated, then it had to be Selina's fault.
Cecilia had warned Selina several times but Selina had never heeded her words.
Cecilia was frustrated with Selina's silence.
At the dining table, she spoke, "Selina, why didn't Matthew come? Is it truly because he is preoccupied with work or did something happen? Could it be that you guys are no longer dating? Otherwise, why wouldn't he come?"
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