Natalie could not remember when she started behaving like that. Everything probably accumulated over time.
For instance, Madison would call her vulgar names since Natalie was a child.
Perhaps, it was the other time when her father gave her some money because he knew that Madison was not nice to her. Hence, he asked Natalie to save the money and spend it wisely. She kept the money in a small box and would only use it when she needed to. Unfortunately, Madison found the money shortly after.
Natalie explained that her father gave her the money. However, Madison beat Natalie up and made her kneel in front of her school with a sign that read 'thief' on her chest.
Back then, Natalie was young and she did not understand things nor fight Madison.
The students and teachers who passed by pointed their fingers at Natalie. She was traumatized in her elementary school.
After that incident, she earned a new nickname, 'thief.
Every time a student lost something, someone would exclaim in an exaggerated fashion, "Search Natalie's belongings. She might've stolen it."
Perhaps, she lost her confidence ever since that day and her low self- esteem was deep- rooted in her heart.
No matter how cheerful she was or how hard she tried to hide it, her low self-esteem would torment her.
After a few moments, Natalie suddenly took a deep breath.
She should not continue to drown in her own past.
She needed to be confident just like Tobias told her to. She needed to be confident!
Natalie decided to set a small goal so she could gain her confidence eventually and walk out of her past.
She did not want to be pessimistic. Her life was great, hence she should not let her past trouble her.
Without warning, Natalie opened the window.
A gust of wind blew her hair away from her face.
Natalie raised her hand and held it around her lips. She shouted, "Natalie, you need to be confident. Do you hear me? You need to be confident! Natalie!"
After shouting at the sky, Natalie felt so much better.
She closed the window and lay on the bed.
"I should sleep. Tomorrow will be a beautiful day and I will be confident!" Natalie said to herself.
In another bedroom, Tobias was reading a proposal.
Suddenly, he heard someone shouting. He could not hear it clearly but he could make out that it was something about confidence.
It was Natalie's voice.
Tobias' eyes went blank for a while and his lips curled into a smile.
Personalities were built over time but a change of heart changed everything.
Recently, he kept hinting at Natalie. He believed that Natalie was positive and she would be able to improve her self-esteem.
The next day, Natalie got up and stretched her limbs.
She made a bold decision.
She ran to her cloakroom that was filled with designer clothes.
Natalie used to touch them but she never had the guts to wear them.
She felt that she was not qualified to wear designer clothes and she should stick to cheap clothes.
However, Natalie told herself that she was qualified to wear them!
It was just some clothes, hence why was she not qualified?
Her low self- esteem was a "thorn" in Natalie's heart. After talking with Tobias the previous day, she decided to remove the thorn.
Natalie grabbed a white dress with a cute doll printed on it.
After putting on the dress, Natalie checked her own reflection in the mirror and her head went blank.
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