Her grandmother had yet to be buried at that time, and her body was in the morgue at the hospital. At that time, Elsa already could not care about her grandmother anymore. After all, the body would not move on its own. She just bought a train ticket and wanted to go to that woman's hometown to look for her child. I n the end, before she got on the train, she fainted at the train station.
It was because she had been running all over the place after she had just given birth the day before, so her body was bleeding out. If she had not been given emergency treatment in time, she might not even be alive anymore. By the time she was able to get out of bed a little, one week had already passed.
A week later, Elsa, whose body was still weak, traveled two days and two nights by train to that village in the mountains. She then finally found that woman's address with great
difficulty. In the end, the information she got from her inquiry came as a bombshell to her.
It turned out that the woman was a typical unreasonable criminal. She had quite a bit of debt because of gambling. She was hiding everywhere from the debt collectors who were after her. Later on, she gradually became a human trafficker. After that, she started to sleep around all over the place with men, and her purpose was just to get pregnant. She would almost think of a way to get pregnant with the next child as soon as she had passed the breastfeeding period for her baby at that time. She had been seeking pleasure like that for almost six years. It was because of her pregnancy and also the breastfeeding period that she managed to evade justice. Not only that, but she would even trade the children that she had given birth for money to spend. She was killing two birds with one stone. All the people in the area resented this woman greatly, and she had never returned to her hometown for almost a decade.
After hearing such information, Elsa came to the conclusion that her child certainly had already been sold a long time ago. That information was such a huge blow to Elsa that she almost died on the spot. However, when she thought of the fact that her grandmother's body was still in the morgue, she had no choice but to return to the hospital in South City with an exhausted body and an utterly hopeless heart. After burying her grandmother, Elsa originally wanted to take her own life by jumping into the river.
However, she was saved by an old nun who was passing by.
The old nun told her that the world was filled with unpredictable things, and there were other people who were more miserable than her in this world. She advised Elsa to be a little more open-minded. If she had given up on worldly desires, then she could follow her and become a nun. That way, she would also have one additional companion at the convent. Elsa, who was like a working corpse, then
followed the nun to the convent.
Elsa then stayed at the convent for thirty-six years. There was not a single day in the past that she was not repenting. She was repentant for giving birth to her son. She was even repentant for having known Sean. In the past thirty-six years, she almost never left the covenant and had been sincerely praying every day from her early twenties to almost pushing 60. She originally thought that her life was going to pass by just like that. However, what Elsa had never expected was that she could still see her grown-up son in her old age, as well as that man she had once loved with all her heart and soul. She no longer hated this man at that moment, but she also did not love him. All that she had was repentance, endless repentance.
That particular day, on the other hand, was the day she felt most relieved. Her son had actually found her. It was her son who came looking for her on his own initiative. Could all this be God's will? However, even if it was
God's will, she should have been punished instead. After all, she was the one who had fallen in love with a married man back then.
"Lon, I'm sorry. I am a sinner. I shouldn't have fallen for that man, which led to me giving birth to you irresponsibly. There's no need for you to call me your mom because I don't deserve it. You don't have to provide for me as well because I don't also deserve it. I should b e a person despised by all because I am a shameful homewrecker."
At that moment, Lean suddenly said, "Elsa, don't...don't talk about yourself like that."
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