Kingston could not imagine how it feels for a mother not to love her own children.
Subconsciously, Kingston raised his arm and put the girl in his arms. He did not intend to do anything indecent to her. It was just a natural expression for him. He wanted to comfort her and give her strength.
The girl did not object either. Perhaps she was too tired and emotionally exhausted. She was feeling very aggrieved, so she bawled her eyes out in Kingston’s arms.
"Do you know how inferior both my brother and I got after we’ve been laughed at by our cousins? You have no idea! Not only was my mother very harsh on my brother and me when it came to food and kept satisfying her family, but it came to clothes as well. We were already very tight on budget for clothes and we didn't have much money left over after a year, to begin with. My father originally wanted to buy new clothes for my brother and me, but my mother took the money meant for our new clothes and gave it to my grandparents," she cried.
"In the end, both my brother and I had no new clothes to wear in the new year. When all of our relatives gathered together, all of our cousins were dressed in fresh and new clothes. My brother and I were the only exceptions. We just stood in the middle of them like little fools. Do you know how inferior both of us feel? My brother felt so inferior that he covered his eyes and cried. When I got a little older, I felt unsatisfied. I then grabbed a handful of dirt and threw it onto my cousin's pretty ski jacket, and my aunts and my mother saw me doing that. My aunts scolded me for being malicious. They scolded me for being as evil-minded as my father. My mother was even so angry that she beat me up aggressively. That time, she had beaten me up so much that I was bleeding out of my ears. She beat me up at my grandmother’s house and she continued after we got home. While she beat me up, she cursed at me. She said that I was useless. She said I was just as lowly and as malevolent as my father. She said that I was unlike her at all, who was selfless, open, and fair. She asked how she could have married into a family of greedy people."
Kingston was speechless. How could there be such a mother in this world? However, after he thought about it carefully, mothers like these do exist.
The majority of the older generation, especially those who were still living in villages, still had that kind of mindset. If there were any good food and drinks, they certainly would not give them to their own children. They would have to save it for other children. This way, they would be able to get a good reputation in the outside world.
'Look, she is so selfless. Look, she is such a good person, she is nicer to other people's children than her children.'
There were way too many people like that. However, there were only a few who went as overboard as Eevonne's mother.
Eevonne cried. "My brother and I grew up in that kind of environment. My mother kept criticizing us for being inferior to others all day long. She said we have no conscience and she kept criticizing us for this and that. That was the kind of environment we grew up in.
"I have very low self-esteem. I have always been looked down upon since childhood. I felt that I was living just like a clown. I didn't want to go to school at all and I didn't want to study. My mother never felt that I could do well academically either. Therefore, I dropped out of school after I graduated middle school."
Kingston looked at Eevonne in disbelief. " You dropped out of school when you were so young. Then, what...what could you work as when you were so young?"
Eevonne suddenly smiled. "You could never imagine what kind of jobs I've done after that."
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