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The Alpha and His Contract Luna novel Chapter 18

In 18. Am I a bad girl? of The Alpha and His Contract Luna novel (Lauren and Darren) by Evelyn M.M., the gripping saga of Lauren and Darren continues to unfold with new twists and turns.

At The Alpha and His Contract Luna novel Lauren and Darren 18. Am I a bad girl? As tensions escalate between Lauren and Darren, the once inseparable mates find themselves at odds with each other. Darren's allegiance to his fated mate creates a rift between them, leaving Lauren grappling with feelings of betrayal and abandonment. Meanwhile, Darren struggles to reconcile his duties as an alpha with his personal desires, torn between loyalty and love.

I wake with Iris plastered to my chest and my arms around her. I start to panic because I didn’t want her this close to me. I was about to gently push her away when her face catches me off guard.

She looks so peaceful. Like a beautiful, innocent angel sleeping. Her long lashes fan her face and she has a small cute pout. Looking at her right now, with her guard down, I want nothing but to protect her against all the evil of this world.

I try shaking off the sudden feeling. What the hell was happening? Where was my resolve to keep her at arm’s length?

‘You didn’t have a nightmare at night’ a small voice whispers in my mind.

I know it wasn’t Raya’s. She wouldn’t be happy nor would she point out that I had a peaceful sleep even after the roller coast of events that happened to me.

‘It’s because she was by your side’ the voice whispers again.

That’s not possible, right? There was no way that my unwanted daughter was the reason why I didn’t wake up drenched in my own sweat. It’s just impossible. In fact, I would have expected the nightmare to be worse because she was near me.

“Grace said you’re my mommy, are you?”

Her voice startles me. I look down to find that she was wide and was staring at me. Her eyes give nothing but given I’m used to hiding my thoughts and feelings, I see past her blank stare.

Behind those dangerous green eyes, is hope and longing.

I start to internally panic. What should I tell her? How should I answer her? Yes I was her biological mother but in this case I was just an egg donor.

I wasn’t sure I could be a mother to her given what her disgusting father did to me. I’m afraid that every time I look at her green eyes I will be reminded of him. That with time that will make me resent her.

Deep down I know it’s not her fault. That none of the things that happened were her fault but it’s hard to let go. It’s hard to separate her from her monster of a father.

‘Not all parts of her are Daniel’s, half of her is you, and you’re good’ the voice reasons.

Is that enough really? To believe that the part of my DNA that lives in her will override the darkness she inherited from her father. What if she becomes just like him? A monster. What will I do then?

“It’s okay if you don’t want to be my mother. I understand. Nanny used to say that I’m no good. That I’m useless that’s why my daddy and mommy left me”

My heart hurts at the sadness I hear in her voice. Why would a grown woman tell that to a child?

I find myself pulling her close to me. As soon as she is in my arms, she starts to silently cry. Her tears soaking my pajamas.

“Did your nanny ever hit you Iris?” I asks, afraid of the answer.

“Sometimes but not always.” she answers in a small voice. “Am I a bad girl? Is that why she was mean to me? Is that why dad left me with her and you don’t want me?”

I feel for her. No matter how I try to run from it, the truth is that she is my daughter whether I like it or not. And just like me, it seems that she has been through her share of torture and pain.

“No, you’re not a bad girl. You could never be a bad girl because you’re part of me, do you understand?”

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