The Alpha and His Contract Luna novel Chapter 97

Sebastian.

Two month. Two whole fucking month. That’s how long Red has been missing. No one knows where she is. Including Lilly and Claire. I don’t know if they were being honest. But they insist that they have no clue where she was.

I drink my scotch and embrace the burning sensation. I need her. I want her. Feels like I’m slowly going insane without her.

“You can’t continue like this Bash” Micah snarls while entering my office.

I ignore him because he doesn’t know how I feel. What I feel not being close to my mate. I was an idiot. I should have realized that there was no way Red would stay. That she would think I would choose Mayra over her.

Every method my P.I have deployed has ended in nothing but dead ends and cold trails. Her parents haven’t heard from her and neither has Luke. Her phone has been off since she left and her mental blocks haven’t given an inch.

I keep banging on them. Trying to reach her but it’s of no use at all because she never answers back.

“Bash”

“Leave me alone Micah, I’m doing my job as an Alpha…shouldn’t that be enough?” I growl, throwing back the remaining contents of my glass.

“Yes, but you haven’t been yourself of late…you’re like a fucking robot just going through the motions” he grumbles.

What did they want from me? I was doing enough. I was getting by as best as I could. So what the hell did they want from me?

“Just leave Micah. I want to be alone. I need to think” I tell him tiredly.

I wasn’t the only one who was affected when Red left. Jax misses her a lot and so does Fang. The previous day, Jax even asked me if he could start calling Red ‘mom’ when she got back.

The sharp pain that pierces my heart every time I think of her is excruciating. I should have assured her. Should have realized that the moment she shut me out spelled doom. I should have tried everything to get back to her instead of staying at the hospital.

I watch as Micah slowly and quietly leaves the room. Finally I was alone again. Alone with my regrets.

“Where are you Red?” I ask the empty room and just like always I don’t get a fucking answer.

How am I supposed to live without her when each day without her by my side is dull and painful? I feel like the air has been sucked from lungs each day that goes by without a word from her. Like there is no color or life.

“Are you finally going to accept that you fell for her?” Fang asks. “That we are in love with them”

I’ve denied that notion since Fang broached the subject but not anymore. Because if I wasn’t in love with her then why was I feeling so fucking hollow? Why did it hurt to breathe without her near me?

Does she even feel the same? What if she’s still in love with that asshat, Darren? What will I do then?

“There’s only one way to find out. We can’t give up on finding her. She’s ours” Fang says with determination in his voice.

I get back to looking at every angle. Maybe I can find something that my private investigators missed. Fang was right. There was no way I was going to give up on Red.

A knock on my door interrupts my concentration.

“Come in” answer, still focused on the papers on my desk.