"I'm sorry, Walter, I'm really sorry. If I can choose, I would really like to love you recklessly. You are a good man, a really good man. The biggest regret of my life is that I can't be with you. I am not worthy of you, I failed your trust and love. I can feel that you like me. Although it is very likely not love, but for someone like me, it was precious. I am dying... I really don't want to leave you, I really don't want to leave the world..."
Novalee cried so hard that she couldn't open her mouth.
Walter did not know what to say at the moment.
There were a lot of questions he wanted to ask, and many things that he couldn't understand. But now, as he watched Novalee's broke down, he couldn't say a word.
Novalee continued.
"Do you know? After my parents passed away, I was left with my brother who had a congenital heart disease. As a little girl there wasn't much I could do. I could only sell myself out. I knew that by doing so I wouldn't be able to determine my own future. But as long as my brother is fine, it's okay. It's not a big deal for me to live like this. But ever since I met you and fell in love with you, I turned greedy. I wanted to have control over my own life. I want to choose my own fate, but I can't escape. Walter, please don't blame me. I know that I have done many wrong things that made you unhappy. I also know that I have hidden a lot of things from you. You are very angry with me. But I beg you, forgive me, please..."
"God has punished me, it made me lose the most important thing in this world, you. I used to think that my brother was all I have. It wasn't until I met you that I realize I had other people I wanted to care for. Walter, being together with you was the happiest time of my life. After I died, you should forget me, find someone who really loves you to get married and have children. I sincerely hope that you can be happy."
Novalee's tears fell on Walter's shoulder and they burnt.
Walter's eyes were getting teary.
"How did you get to this point? You never once believed me. If you trust me, you can tell me everything you've gone through, and we can come up with a solution. Maybe there are thousands of possibilities between us. But Novalee, you always treat me as an outsider. You keep saying that you love me but never allow me to enter your world and enter your heart. Is this really love?"
Walter's voice was hoarse, what he said made Novalee cried even more.
"You don't understand. There are some things that you won't understand. It's too late for me to say anything now. All I can say is to watch out for your stepmother. Also, I'll leave my brother's matter in your hands. I know that I'm shameless, but what can I do? I only met a nice man like you once my entire life. If I don't make a move, to who shall I make my move? I admit that I used your affection, and I also admit that I'm despicable. I used my death to let you help my brother, but there's nothing else I could do. Even if I'm despicable and shameless, this will be the last time I do so. Walter, from now on, no one will set you up again."
Walter didn't know how to process Novalee's word.
"Get some rest. The doctor told you to have a rest, so you can still live a few more days."
"What's the difference between living a few days longer and dying now? There's no difference. Walter, can you help me call Mango in?"
"What do you want to do?"
Walter suddenly became nervous.
Seeing this, Novalee became upset.
"I'm already in this state, what else can I do? When can you treat me like how you treat her?"
"Mango can be honest with me and risk her life for me. Can you do that? Novalee, if you can't do something that you can't, don't hope that others will meet your expectations."
Walter's words were a little heavy.
Novalee couldn't bear it, but she still said with a wry smile, "Yes, I really don't treat you as well as she treats you with all her heart. But she is your cousin, you and her can't be together!"
Her words hit on Walter's wounds.
He said with a cold face, "I know, I don't need you to remind me. Didn't you just say something to her? Why do you need her again?"
"There's something that I haven't finished yet. Don't worry, I can't hurt her."
Novalee turned bitter.
How could she feel good when the man she loved the most was protecting another woman?
She knew that she didn't have much time left. Otherwise, she wouldn't have submitted to Mango, and she wouldn't have told her rival her last words.
But the cruel reality was that she couldn't count on anyone other than Mango.
She knew that Walter would not leave her younger brother alone, but she needed double protection.
At least Mango and Nathaniel could protect Henry if anything happened to Walter.
Novalee felt that she had lived all her life for others and for her brother, but what about herself?
The only man she wanted, had another woman in his heart...
Walter couldn't help but sigh as he quietly stared at Novalee's pale face and the state she was in. It was as if she would stop breathing at any moment.
"Long story short, Mango still has something to do."
"All right."
Novalee smiled weakly as she saw Walter sighed for relief.
When Walter came out, Mango was calling Nathaniel.
When she saw Walter came out, she quickly said, "I can't talk to you anymore. If you are done with your work, go back quickly. I'll go home later too. Let's talk about it when we meet."
"All right."
Nathaniel hung up the phone.
Mango put away her phone. She patted him on the shoulder when she saw the pained expression on Walter's face and said, "Life and death are determined. You've already done enough." "I know. You don't have to comfort me. I'm not that weak. I just need some time to recover."
Walter's words reassured Mango.
"Sorry, I made you experience a bad relationship. I was wrong about her."
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