These past few days, he'd wasted so much time just for that one accidental glance.
He'd been putting off a lot of stuff.
His mind seemed to be wandering elsewhere.
Every day, he waited at that intersection, hoping that she might pass by there again.
Maybe that's her usual route.
Every day, he watched countless cars pass back and forth.
But Jared never saw that familiar face again.
For four years, that glimmer of hope in Jared's heart gradually drowned in disappointment and frustration.
Maybe that person wasn't Agnes at all, just someone who looked like her, or maybe he was mistaken.
Jared felt a headache coming on.
"Book me a flight, I'm heading back tomorrow."
Leo was surprised, but in the end, he only said, "Alright."
Ever since he saw that profile, Jared felt like every cell in his body was in turmoil.
All those suppressed emotions burst out all at once.
For so many years, he's been obsessively searching for that woman, almost pathologically persistent, as if finding her became the most important thing in life.
Years of disappointment and pain piled up like a mountain.
He wished he could find that woman and kill her on the spot.
He couldn't tell if his feelings for her were love or hate.
Memories of the past cut him like a knife, from unbearable pain to a gradual numbness, but ready to burst at any moment.
Jared had had enough.
But he couldn't shake off these emotions.
It was the only thing in his life he couldn't control.
He's been on the edge of breaking down, the worst times felt like his entire body was scalded by hot oil, being drained of all moisture, tough as iron on the outside but rotting inside.
Even the slightest touch could shatter his heart.
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