I Only Want You novel Chapter 370

James did not reply to him. He only smiled sorrowfully and said, "If I agree to your request, I hope... we can write off all our old scores." Afterward, they would live their own lives and did not mention those things again.

Xavier did not speak. After glancing at James, he looked down.

"Do you agree or not?"

Hearing this, Xavier raised his head and stared at him. He did not say yes or no. After a long while, he whispered, "Is there any more cigarettes?"

James frowned, took out a cigarette and a lighter, and handed them to him.

In fact, Xavier seldom smoked, and he had not yet recovered from his illness. Therefore, he was choked and coughed violently as soon as he took a draw. However, he did not throw it away. Even though he was choked and felt hot in his throat, and he even coughed from time to time, he forced himself to finish smoking the cigarette.

James stood aside and watched him, not saying anything to stop him. Although his heart was uneasy, he waited patiently.

Xavier also threw the cigarette butt into the cup and said with a smile, "Well, I've finished smoking."

James narrowed his eyes. He didn't know why Xavier suddenly said this. "Okay." Xavier nodded as he stared at the cup. Then he raised his head to look at James and said, "I have taken your cigarette and smoked it. Let the past go with the wind, just like the smoke."

"You..." James looked at Xavier in disbelief, as if he wanted to find that he was joking from his expression. He had been looking at Xavier for a long time, but Xavier still looked serious.

"What did you say? Forget it? Is that what you mean?"

"Yes." Xavier nodded.

"Don't you blame me? Are you going to let it go just like this?" James still didn't believe it, and he didn't dare believe it.

Xavier smiled faintly, "Yes, I blamed you, and I even hated you, although I once said that I didn't blame you." He coughed a few times because of his dry throat as he said this, "But I think that no one would be able to act as if nothing had happened if they were me. After all, that's kind of a shame."

James smiled bitterly and said, "I'm sorry."

"You said you wanted me to feel better, so you were willing to do that... No." Xavier shook his head, "Jimmy, forget it. You can't bear it. I am so painful these years, and I had been treated for so long before I disentangled myself from the past. Why do you have to suffer from that again? Even if I really let you do that, the past will disappear? So, forget it."

Xavier coughed and then added, "Zena once asked me if I hated you. At that time, I couldn't answer her. I thought that I didn't hate you anymore, because it's been a long time. But whenever I look at you, I always feel uncomfortable in my heart, as if there is a thorn in my heart. So, I always can't control myself and speak to you like that."

"But today..." Xavier closed his eyes and sighed softly, "I really decide not to hate you anymore. I want to forget the pain and start over again. Today, I didn't expect to meet Elizabeth there..."

When James heard him address Elizabeth like this, he pursed his lips tightly and did not say anything.

"If it weren't for her, I wouldn't know what to do." Xavier smiled and said blandly, "I have been looking forward to my father's love for many years, but I have completely given it up today. He used to be the closest person to me, but now he is not. Therefore, in this world, you, uncle, and aunt are my only relatives. I know better than anyone that uncle and aunt treat me very well. Even if you have done something wrong, I have to forgive you, because... I am your brother."