"I..." Hearing this, Xavier felt as if all his blood had solidified. He couldn't even move a little.
"No." Zena said as she shook her head gently, "It's not right."
Xavier didn't speak.
"Just now, in Jimmy's house, you are not like this." Zena closed her eyes and then stared into his eyes, saying, "You were so close to Elizabeth, but you didn't feel uncomfortable at all. You even..." She sneered, "You have an erection. I saw it."
Zena said in a bland voice. Her every word was like a heavy hammer, bashing his heart.
He opened his mouth and wanted to say something, but he had nothing to say.
Yes, he had disentangled himself from the past a little, and he was not disgusted with every woman. Look, wasn't Elizabeth a good example? They were so close to each other, but he didn't reject her, and he even...
How absurd it was! Elizabeth was even his cousin's wife.
He knew that Zena noticed his erection when they were in the garden. Otherwise, she would not have looked at him with such eyes, nor would she have said that she would wait for his performance.
But his performance still let her down. When he faced her, even if she tried so hard, he still couldn't
do it. He even felt sick.
"Xavier, what should I say? Should I congratulate you? Or should I say that I'm pathetic?" She smiled sadly, "Your body could have a reaction when you face a woman who you've only met a few times..." She paused but did not say what she was going to say. Instead, she said, "But you act like this when facing me, your future wife. How can I stand this?"
Xavier lowered his eyes and was speechless.
"I think I'm a very outstanding woman, and I even think I'm much better than Elizabeth. Why..." Why was Jimmy so nice to her? Why was Xavier also obsessed with her?
Zena had never been so failed like this in her life.
She even felt shame to be friends with Elizabeth, but James and Xavier, the two men she used to care about a lot, both treated Elizabeth so well all of a sudden.
The more she thought like this, the more she could not control her jealousy and anger. Was Elizabeth qualified to be cared about by them?
Her eyes were gradually filled with tears, "Xavier, don't forget that I am a normal woman, and I have normal physiological needs like other women!"
Xavier felt a dull pain in her heart. He was overwhelmed by the sense of powerlessness, and he swallowed a few times with difficulty, "Zena, how about..."
Zena took a deep breath and smiled more brightly. She closed her eyes tightly and said, "Go wash."
Just take a bath.
She didn't want to see him, did she? At such a moment.
Xavier pursed his lips dejectedly and gave a sad smile. Then he nodded slightly, "Okay."
He stood under the shower, allowing the water to spray freely.
Looking down at his lower body, he smiled feebly and sighed in his heart, "It has been so many years, but why do you still behave like this when you face your own woman?"
He closed his eyes in sorrow, and a scene constantly flashed through his mind. When his patience reached the limit, he couldn't stand it anymore and growled, punching the hard wall fiercely.
He punched the wall again and again, and the back of his hand bled, but he could not feel the pain. He could only feel the depression and misery in his heart. It seemed that every time he hit the wall, the pain in his heart would reduce and he would feel more comfortable.
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