"Come on! Let's drink!"
"Cheers!"
"Aww! Again! Again!"
"Sir, do you need some wine?" Selah paced around with a tray in her hands to the deafening music. Her job was to sell wine whenever she saw someone hanging in the night club.
She worked in the biggest night club in the city, selling wine only. She swallowed her pride and came to this kind of place because she desperately needed money, but was unable to find a decent job. She had been working here for more than half a month, and it was one of her life's most terrible experiences.
"I'll buy your wine after you drink it!" A topless man with tattoo stopped Selah.
"Okay!" Selah smiled, took the glass, and gulped down the liquor.
"Nice!" the crowd cheered.
The man took the wine bottle with a smile and gave Selah a few bills. "Thank you!" Selah smiled at the man sweetly then left. The instant she turned around, the smile on her face disappeared, replaced by a look of desperation and helplessness. It was so disgusting.
While she did not deserve this form of life and could be taken advantage of by certain men, it did not matter to her. What mattered to her most was surviving and making a living.
Early the next morning, Selah returned to her apartment with heavy steps. When she was about to crawl onto the bed and have a good rest, her stomach suddenly churned.
"Eww... Blaargh!"
Selah rushed to the toilet and vomited heavily. It went on for a few minutes, making her extremely exhausted. The previous night, she had made a lot of money with just a small price to pay. She just had to drink a lot of wine herself. That must have been the reason why she threw up so much.
After quite some time, Selah stood up, and rinsed her mouth with the cold water. She also splashed her face with water, letting the coldness sober her up.
She raised her head and looked at her wet face in the mirror. She smiled sarcastically as she thought that if someone heard her vomiting like this early in the morning, they might wonder if she was pregnant. Pregnant? Gosh! Boom!
At the thought of this, Selah's smile instantly disappeared. Her head went blank and her face turned pale.
When was her last period? When did her last menstrual period come? It had been more than a month since the incident happened in the US, but her period had not come yet? No way!
In a hurry, Selah wiped the water off her face and rushed downstairs to the convenience store in her slippers.
No! Please no!
Selah prayed along the way. Her life had been so difficult. Was God really so cruel to make her life worse?
She bought the pregnancy test stick and the result came out. At the sight of the two lines, she fell on the floor of the bathroom. Her legs felt weak and she was unable to get up.
She was really pregnant!
Selah curled up in the apartment like a dead person. She did not eat nor drink. Whenever she felt sleepy, she would just close her eyes. She did not even know whether she was asleep or not. Most of the time, she was awake. Only her occasional eye-rolling proved that she was still alive. Suddenly, her old phone rang unexpectedly several times, echoing inside her apartment. Although Selah was going through so much, the thought of ending her life did not occur to her at all. Despite all her hardships, she was still unwilling to give up so easily.
After a few days of barely holding on, she decided to get up and go to the hospital with the desire to survive.
"The result is out." In the consulting room, a middle-aged female doctor in the white gown informed her expressionlessly, "You are pregnant. The baby is almost five weeks old."
Selah's eyes darkened. She pulled her mask and hat, and asked, "Can I have an abortion?"
With a frown, the doctor queried, "An abortion? Do you still want a baby after the abortion?"
Selah was stunned. She did not understand what the doctor had meant, but she still nodded. Of course she wanted a baby in the future. It was just that the child in her womb was unexpected and unplanned.
"Your body is unhealthy and it will be hard for you to get pregnant. If you abort this child, there is a great possibility that you may not have the ability to be a mother in the future," the doctor explained in a scolding tone. "You'd better think it through."
With the laboratory sheet in her hand, Selah walked out of the room absentmindedly. She wanted to complain, but she had no one to vent her anger. It only happened once yet she got pregnant right away! Was it not difficult for her to get pregnant then? How did she get pregnant in the first time? How ridiculous! Could God not see how miserable she already was? Why?! She did not think she had done anything wrong to deserve this. Why did she have to suffer alone? She could not understand why life was so difficult to her.
Desperate, Selah shamelessly returned to the nightclub and asked for a job. However, her boss did not want her to continue working after being absent for several days. She tried to negotiate to him by suggesting he reduce her commission by ten percent. Thinking that it was a reasonable payout, her employer agreed.
She decided to keep the baby.
Keeping in mind that she was pregnant, Selah tried her best not to drink. If she could make more money, she would seize the opportunity. She did not resign until her belly became obvious in her third month of pregnancy.
She sold her small apartment and moved to her cousin's home with her savings in the previous months. At that time, her cousin was still unmarried and lived alone. When Selah arrived at her cousin's home, her cousin was shocked to see her with a big belly.
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