For my first child, the moment he suffocated, I could still remember that tearing pain I'd felt when he was struggling in my belly.
I had tried to search for all this information without Hendrix's knowledge because I was so afraid of facing this situation and getting my hopes up again.
Sitting on the bed, I almost felt that my soul had left my body. I seemed to have returned to the moment of the miscarriage, experiencing the moments of despair and suffocation again.
Suddenly, I could feel a sense of warmth coming from my wrist. When I came to, my gaze was met by Hendrix's gentle and affectionate eyes.
He was half kneeling on the bed, playing with my hand and giving me an intense look.
"I know. You're worried that you will fail. You're also worried that your efforts will be in vain. You're even more worried that those jerks will suddenly appear and hurt you and our child again. However, Arianna, don't be afraid. Think about what my aunt said when I rescued you from death. With me and them around, God will not mistreat you again. This time, there will be no failure. Just take it as it is for my sake, Let's give it a try again, okay?" He convinced me.
Looking at his face, I couldn't tell if it was really necessary for Hendrix to have a child. However, there was one thing he'd said that managed to persuade me.
God would not mistreat me for the third time, and every woman should've had the right of becoming a mother. Even if fate made fools of people, it should have ended long ago for me.
Upon making up my mind, I changed my clothes and asked Minnie to look after Anne. After that, Hendrix and I headed to the First Hospital in Jarold City.
Hendrix didn't ask for a chauffeur. Instead, he drove by himself, and I sat in the passenger seat. The half an hour's drive felt like an eternity.
In the hospital, I saw Mr. Jules for the first time outside of images on the internet. His hairline was a little high, and he was wearing a white coat. The smell of disinfectant on his body did not affect his approachable appearance at all.
After a simple inquiry, Mr. Jules asked both Hendrix and me to do a physical examination.
Hendrix only needed a sperm test. However, I did almost all the important gynecological tests. In addition to those basic gynecological tests, there were also blood tests, medical tests, endocrine tests, and an anti-sperm test. Fortunately, there was a private hospital nearby. After finishing all the medical tests, Hendrix took me back to the First Hospital with the medical report.
Mr. Jules stared at my medical record for a long while. Finally, he took off his glasses and asked with a serious expression, "Miss Reid?"
"Yes," I replied. I gripped Hendrix's hand tightly as I was waiting for him to explain. I was so nervous that my palms were already sweating. If I didn't hold onto him, I was afraid that I would burst into tears when I opened my mouth.
"The situation is a bit complicated. You had experienced miscarriage twice, and the fetal bodies had already been formed for these two times. Since they were accidental abortions, the fetuses had struggled in your belly for a long time, which was harmful to your uterus. Regardless of whether ovulation can be achieved in your body, I'm afraid as of now, your uterus is unable to undergo implantation and embryo growth for the time being..." Mr. Jules said.
Even though my diagnosis was as expected, I still couldn't help swallowing my saliva. Finally, after a long time, I said in a wavering voice, "Then, Dr. Jules, do you mean that even if I try in vitro fertilization, I won't have any chance of getting pregnant?"
My voice became lower and lower and I couldn't even conceal my sobs. I didn't know how I finished asking this question.
At that moment, I once again felt how strong my desire to be a mother was. In the past, even if I knew that my chances of getting pregnant were small, at least there had been a chance. However, my current chances were zero. I did not feel sorrow. I just felt like something inside me had died.
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