"For a long time, as long as I closed my eyes, I would see the terrible scene of that night! I was not sure if I could really get out of the shadow of that thing, so when you proposed to return to the country, I didn't go with you. I didn't do it for my career, but I needed time, more time to face it..."
In the past four years, she stayed alone in Newley City. In addition to missing him every day and night, she also tried not to be troubled by those shadows. But after all, such a thing was a scar that could not be healed for women.
Speaking of that thing, Addy paused for a long time. Then, she slowly began to speak again. "Sean..."
"The things that happened after I returned, let me know that there was no way to go back between us. Sean has been pursuing me for many years. I was alone in Newley City and he always was concerned about me. He still cared about me even though he knew that I had once committed suicide for you. I wanted to have a new start, so I agreed to his proposal!"
"Before I decided to get the marriage certificate, I once told him that I would not want to have children. If he accepted it, we would get married. He promised me to respect my choice at that time! When we were on our honeymoon in Maldives, he found out my secret. I thought since we were already husband and wife, there should be nothing to hide. So I told him everything, thinking that he could forgive me..."
Addy laughed at herself. The tears that had just fallen down her face had been wiped off by her hand, leaving only the wet corners of her eyes. She said in a bitter voice, "In fact, I don't blame Sean. He is right. I am indeed sorry for him! In fact, I feel guilty about him. I understand all his anger, so I didn't agree to call the police when you and Emily came to my house before!"
"I am a woman who can't give birth to children normally. Not only him, but any other man who is with me, no matter how much he loves me, when thinking of the fact that I was raped by so many foreign men for another man, which caused me to lose my uterus and be unable to carry a child, and I can't even have a baby through test tube, he will feel uncomfortable, and there will be no way to accept it!"
After the last word, there was only the sound of fluid in the infusion tube dropping in every two seconds in the ward. The silence seemed to last for a long time.
There was a touch of black in Simon's peachblossom eyes. He was so shocked that the cells all over his body were running wildly, like a stiff sculpture. Sitting on the chair, he had never changed his position.
His Adam's apple bobbed up and down for several times before he finally spoke. "Addy, why didn't you tell me? You didn't say a word when you returned four years later!"
Even the moment when she chose to end her life, she did not tell him...
"I don't want your guilt!" Addy shook her head, "Simon, I also have my own pride. I came back from Newley City to find you, and what I wanted was your love, not your sympathy! If you promised to start with me again because of sympathy, I would rather not have this kind of impure love!"
Simon never thought that there would be such an involvement behind the revenge incident in the past. From the time he returned to the country for so many years, he had never known about it, and Addy intended to hide it from him. If it hadn't been for the domestic violence this time, he probably wouldn't know it for the rest of his life!
He always thought that four years ago, the reason Addy didn't choose to go back to the country with him was that she just didn't want to give up the career of the seam dance, but he didn't expect that there was such a special reason...
If the truth was told to him after Addy returned to the country, would the current situation be totally different?
Would he choose to start with her again?
After the end of the four-year agreement marriage, would he really let go of Emily?
However, the answer was a no.
Simon was very clear about this. As early as when he chose to return to the country, he had sorted out all his feelings. Once he left, there would be no way to go back. Even if he knew the truth later, it was impossible for him to let his Mrs. Chin go...
The veins on the back of his hands bulged, and finally he could only say these words. "Addy, I'm
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