My instinct to survive made me cry out, but there was no living person here except me and this man. No one would hear my cries for help.
Darkness encroached on me, and the fear of death made me cry.
I would die if no one came to save me in time.
It might be a long time after my death before anyone finds out.
Who was it who hated me so much?
My mind went through all the people who might want me dead, but I could not pinpoint a particular person.
The most depressing thing of all was knowing that I was going to die soon
without knowing who killed me.
The temperature in the mortuary cabinet was so cold that my teeth were chattering and my body was shaking. I tried to curl up and hug myself, but I simply could not. My body had begun to stiffen.
I never thought that I would end up dying like this.
What I did not expect was that I remained alive even when Cindy and Petra were so eager to have me dead. I also made it out alive when I was taken abroad and in grave danger. Yet in the end, I was going to die here—in the hands of someone I did not even know.
I had not seen Munchkin yet, I had not apologized to him for my untimely departure, and I had not seen him grow up.
I had not met Cassey's child either. I had not called Petra and Grayson 'Mom' and ‘Dad’ yet. I had not told them that I no longer hated them.
I also had not told Theo how much I loved him and wanted to give him a child. I looked forward to having a grand wedding with him and growing old together.
I felt unwilling. There were still many things waiting for me to do. There were too many things I had yet to say. I did not want to die like this.
I did not even have any strength left to move my lips and could only silently feel my life force seeping out of me. My nerves felt like they were gradually freezing up.
Having to silently wait for my death had put me in despair.
I could not even cry, and my consciousness gradually blurred.
Someone once defined death by saying that a person would die three times.
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