Trust that had been built up could be easily destroyed.
This was the only time I was no longer confident.
Seeing that I did not say a word, Cindy smugly said, "Ms. Lane, if you really want Theowy to go home, then I’ll let him know. He’ll listen to me. But he might go home a little later. You can have dinner yourself. The food will have turned cold once he gets home."
I felt awfully embarrassed but still did not say a word. 1 took the phone away from my ear and hung up.
Looking at the table full of dishes, I felt an incomparable sense of mockery.
Love? There had never been love between Theo and me.
I returned to my bedroom and lay in bed. My heart was in pieces. Cindy's words played in my head like a broken record.
I had initially thought it through that if one day Theo fell in love with another woman, I would wish him all the best. Today, however, I felt so heartbroken. My heart was in such excruciating pain that it felt like it was about to crack open.
I did not want this to happen, yet I could not control myself.
I could not stop myself from thinking of the past and the days when Theo and I were together. I was in agony the more I thought about it. How absurd was this?
The good old days were reduced to nothing in an instant, and all that remained was the damage he had done to me.
I felt sleepy yet could not fall asleep when I closed my eyes. My cramps had returned. It felt like heartburn. I had probably caught a cold from the cool water during the shower.
Since I could not sleep, I decided that I was not going to sleep.
I got up and opened the drawer of the bedside table. I took out the book I did not finish previously.
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