When I noticed the pain in his eyes, I suddenly did not know what to say anymore. I suppressed the anger and irritation in my heart. Looking at him, I said, "Are you very annoyed with me?"
Perhaps I had changed the subject too quickly, he hesitated a little. He looked at me for a long time before asking, "Why are you asking that?"
I reached over and put the pillow on my back before looking at him again. "If it weren't for me, you'd be living happily with Cindy right now. Maybe your kids would even be running and jumping around. It's because of me that you were forced to leave her and all those years went down the drain."
Sensing his anger, I did not look at him and continued, "If I hadn't conceived this child, perhaps she would've become Mrs. Grant a long time ago. I know very well that the status of Mrs. Grant belongs to her, and I should give it back."
After a pause, I said, "Don’t worry, I won’t occupy this position for long and refuse to let go. When the child i s born, I'll immediately move out. We have no feelings for each other, after all. I've already signed the divorce papers, and we'll each go our own separate ways. You
"Wanda Lane!" He angrily interrupted me. "Why are you suddenly making a scene again? Is this why you left home today?"
I did not say anything, nor did I look at him.
He sneered and spoke, "What is marriage to you? Child's play? And what do you think a relationship is? Saying I love you a hundred times every day? How many times do you want me to tell you about Cindy before you believe me? I never had anything going on with her in the past, and I'll not have anything to do with her in the future. I only took care of her because o f my promises to her parents. Why do you refuse to believe me?"
I laughed and said, "Nothing going on with her? Why d o you protect her over and over again, then? I may be stupid, Theo, but I'm not a fool. I can tell what love is."
"Well, aren't you self-aware? Glad you know that you're stupid. If your so-called love is limited to these things then I'm absolutely speechless."
I pursed my lips without a word. His tone softened as h e said in a slightly helpless manner, "You left today without saying anything. Do you know how worried I was when I saw that you didn’t take your phone and purse out in this foreign place? Have you ever thought about my feelings? Are you being responsible to the baby, to me, or even to yourself?"
There was some truth in what he said. I was speechless, so I simply got up and got out of bed, ready
to leave.
"You're leaving just because you can't win the argument?” he mocked.
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