My baby was waiting for me. He had always been waiting for me to find him. I should not disappoint him anymore. I had to look for him.
After all, there was nothing else for me in this world. I might as well go keep him company so he would not b e lonely.
"Where are you, baby?" I ran for quite some time but there was still no sign of my baby. I got anxious. What made me more anxious was that I could not hear him crying anymore.
"Baby, don't you want Mommy anymore?" I could not hold myself back and burst into tears.
I got tired of crying. When I opened my eyes, I realized I was on the road.
I looked around me, feeling terrified like a lost child.
My whole body was wet from being soaked in the rain. I could feel a bone-chilling coldness creeping all over me. I panicked and crouched on the floor.
I was getting more and more uncontrollable. The hallucinations were getting more frequent. I had no idea if I would get lost in my hallucinations one day and never come out again.
I was already suffering from severe depression. I knew how hard it was to cure this illness. I was a
burden to everyone now. I hated myself for becoming like this.
Cars were passing by on the road. I got up from the ground, thinking that I might as well just die like this. Living a life like this was too exhausting. I no longer had any courage left to continue living in this world.
Step by step, I walked toward the middle of the road. I was surprisingly calm.
The moment a car almost hit me, I was grabbed by a strong force, then I fell into a warm embrace.
I did not care who saved me as I could see a baby lying in the middle of the road. That was my baby. I broke down into tears. "My baby. Save my baby."
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