"Don't forget that the divorce agreement that you got a lawyer to draft out is still around. Haven't you always wanted to divorce me? You can't let go of your responsibility for Cindy, whereas I can't let go of my guilt for Matthew. Living like this will only bring great suffering to both of us. We might as well part on good terms. It's better to just get the pain over with rather than prolong the agony."
There had always been problems in our marriage. No matter how hard we tried to gloss over those issues, it was practically impossible to cover them up. At this moment, I actually thought it was a good idea to separate.
It had been many years and I was truly exhausted. I had also opened up my heart to something. If two people were not suitable for each other, they would eventually walk down the path as strangers.
"There's no need to use such high-sounding words." Theo sneered. "You found Matthew in a sea of people and think he's not dead. You feel alive again and want to make up for your sins by getting together with him."
After a pause, he continued, "Also, don't bring up my responsibility toward Cindy. Yes, I'm responsible for taking care of her, but why don't you ask yourself if m
y responsibility for taking care of you is stronger than my responsibility for taking care of her?"
I suddenly felt my head hurt. I could no longer tell which one of us was wrong. Maybe both of us were wrong, but I had no idea how to solve the conflict between us. It was useless to say who was right and who was wrong as that could not solve the issue, so w e might as well part on good terms.
"You can think whatever you want. I don't want to argue with you right now."
I squeezed my eyes shut and when I opened them again, they were calm and carried no waves.
"I hope you can think about whether our marriage is worth continuing once you've calmed down. If you think it should continue, then we can't go on like this."
After saying that, I turned around and planned to leave.
Theo suddenly grabbed my arm and pushed me against the glass door, kissing me roughly.
I pushed his chest with both hands. This kiss made m e really uncomfortable.
However, if he refused to let me go. It would be useless no matter how hard I pushed him. I had no choice but t o suffer without doing anything.
Finally, I found a chance to bite down on his tongue hard and he let go of me in pain.
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