My eyes were still tightly shut when I finished speaking. I did not dare to look at Theo’s reaction.
"Don’t worry, we will try our best. Let’s get you to the emergency room right away and inform the OB/GYN about this.” I was quickly pushed into the emergency operating theatre.
Right before I was wheeled in, I caught a glimpse of the pain on Theo's face. His hands were balled up into fists and he was punching the wall repeatedly.
My heart hurt so much I could barely breathe. It was all my fault. It was all because of my stubbornness and my rashness when it came to making decisions. If the baby was gone, just like this, I would be the greatest sinner of all time. I would never be able to forgive myself.
When I woke up again, whiteness greeted me. I was laying in a hospital bed, and Theo was staring at me intently. I had never seen him look so tired and roughed up before. The memories of what had happened came rushing back into my mind.
"My baby." I jumped up from the bed and reached out t o my belly.
"Lie still." Theo's voice was grave, his tone
demandingly cold. Aside from his slightly messy hair, his face was emotionless.
I was deathly afraid and laid back down. After a long pause, I timidly asked again, "Is my baby okay?"
I no longer felt pain in my abdomen, so I was not sure i f my baby was still in my belly.
He lifted his eyes to glare at me. His face was gloomy and dark. My heart was in my throat as I anxiously waited for him to answer me.
"Wanda Lane, who gave you the courage to do what you did? Did you really think you could bear the consequences of your decision?” He did not answer m y question, only reprimanding me sternly.
Grievance instantly flooded my heart. I tried hard not t o bawl as I retorted, "You think I want things to be this way? I didn’t know what to do! Cindy threatened me with her life, and if I didn't abort the child, do you think she would allow me to live in peace? I really couldn't bring myself to do it, so..."
Towards the end of my rant, I lowered my head.
"What about me? Can't you trust me at least this once? Were you going to lie to me forever?” Theo raised his voice as he bombarded me with questions.
I knew he was burning with rage. My eyes red-rimmed, I continued, "It’s not that I don't trust you, nor did I think I could lie to you forever. All I wanted to do was not burden anyone more than I needed to. This is my baby, and I will take good care of them after the divorce. I won’t allow this baby to affect yours and Ms. Reed's life."
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