Still Wanna Escape After Stealing My Heart? novel Chapter 1494

Seeing that Alex did not reply, Jane's smile became increasingly miserable. "You were the one who set up the rules, Alex, and I've followed them throughout the years. You know that I call you ‘Hubby’ when we are intimate, and you also know how much I love you, but still, you tossed me out without warning, didn't you? There's a saying that a day as husband and wife forms a bond that lasts forever. We have been a married couple without the titles for seven years, and I've always seen you as my husband, and your family as mine. But what about you? Have you seen me as your wife, even for a moment? If you had viewed me as a wife even for a split moment before, you wouldn't have remained silent and refused to make any commitment to me, would you?

"Haven't you been thinking of me as a plaything to entertain you between the sheets from the day I followed you home? Haven't you been waiting for your ex-girlfriend the entire time at the bottom of your heart? I tried changing the nature of our relationship before, simply because I loved you too much. I asked for your permission to organize a birthday party for your father. In the end, you only invited your aunt, the Parkers, your second uncle and Sebastian because your father stays away from people. You didn't even bring me along with you that day. That was the day when I realized that you are never going to make me your wife. But still, I love you, Alex, which is why I

couldn't bring myself to leave your side, even if I don't get the respect and title I long for."

"Even when I got pregnant, even when I desperately wanted children, you... You never agreed to it. The first time I got pregnant, I told you that it was an accident, that I would never do anything that displeases you or you would disapprove, but you probably didn't believe me, did you? Which was why you suspected that I did i t on purpose when I got pregnant by accident the first time. You took me to the hospital yourself for the abortion. Since then, you have become even more cautious. You would go to the drug store to get the strong contraceptive pills there were, take them home and watch as I took those pills before locking the pills back into the drawer in your nightstand.

"It wasn’t until the second time I got pregnant that you finally realized that I wasn't lying, that I wasn't trying t o blackmail you with a child. I went to get the abortion by myself that time, and when I went back, you stroked my back and complimented me on how obedient and understanding I was. Alex, do you have any idea how long I spent crying alone in my room that night? That night, I felt like I wasn't even human, but a puppy you keep around. I'm grateful that you didn't take me for a neutering surgery as your puppy, but that night, I cried myself to sleep.

"No one knew how much I cared for my child. No one knew how hard it was for a mother to lose her child three times in a row. You will never understand, never. Not only did you not understand, Alex, you didn't even care about my feelings and my body. Have you ever thought that you could be wearing a condom i f you really didn't want me to get pregnant? But you never did, and would rather get me to go through abortion over and over again. Even better, you could have gotten a vasectomy for yourself, but you didn't.

"Of course, you wouldn't do so! It's not that you didn't like or want children, you simply wanted children with your official wife, who was still traveling around the world out there at the time. She was the one you've been waiting for the entire time, and I was merely your pet, Alex. A pet that could do chores, entertain you between the sheets, attend parties with you and get abortion by itself. Your wife came back out of the blue with no warning, and you just chased m e out without even finding me a place to stay that day. Have you thought of the possibility of me ending up in the streets when you tossed me out that day? Have you taken the time to think that I actually couldn't find my way out alive?"