Tears welled up in Eevonne's eyes again." No, I am not a good girl, Kingston. I'm a hot mess. I was not sensible at all. Kingston, I had truly regretted all those things that I had done. Do you know? There is a good saying which says that every pitiful person must have made some mistakes in the past that made them that way. Do you know when I was at the most pitiful moment in my life? It was not when I was discovered to have faked my diploma. It was also not when I stood in front of the entire company was reprimanded in public. It was...it was when I went to my boss, who already hated and looked down on me very much, and asked if I could borrow money from him to satisfy my vanity and to put up a pitiful pride in front of my family. Guess what happened in the end? Once again, that boss used me as an example and criticized me in front of the entire company. He said that my fantasies were too sweet in front of everyone. He said that I was having nothing more than wishful thinking and it was not realistic at all. At that moment, I felt that I was a sinner. I felt that I truly was a terrible mess. I felt how my character could be so messed up. I was feeling so inferior...that I was worse than the most ordinary janitor in the company."
She continued. "What was even more ridiculous was that in order to express my sincerity at that time, and to let the whole company know that I have the intention to repent, I said something that I shouldn’t have said in front of everyone. I said that I truly have brought a bad influence to the company. I was an administrative staff in the office, but my character was worse than a janitor. I offended the entire body of the staff because of that line. As soon as I finished my words, countless voices directly criticized me and even cursed at me. They said who do I think I was. They asked me who gave me the right to use janitors as an analogy. What's wrong with janitors? 'Our boss did not even look down on the janitors, so how could you, a woman with poor character, deserve to be compared to the janitors? You even dare to say that you're an administrative staff in the office. Are you even worthy? Who doesn't know that your diploma was faked? Who didn't think that you were borrowing money from all over the place? What were you borrowing money for? Sir, get this woman fired! With a woman like this in the company, she is simply polluting our air in the company!’ Kingston, do you know how I pulled through that meeting that was meant to reprimand me? I didn't dare to cry or get angry. I didn't dare to do anything at all. I just stood there and let everyone criticize me. My boss just watched from the side. He did not say anything at all. It was after everyone had vented their anger that my boss said to me, 'Eevonne, you have to make a statement. So many people are correcting your mistakes here. In fact, they are helping you. You have to recognize your mistakes, and then humbly ask for advice from the others in the company. You have to slowly learn to be better. You have to show your attitude. You have to make a statement in front of the entire company.'"
Upon saying that, tears were gushing down Eevonne's cheeks.
At that moment, Kingston was just a listener. He did not say anything. He was simply being a listener while frowning. From time to time, he would pick up a piece of tissue for Eevonne to wipe her tears.
She just kept crying and crying.
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