That kind of grievance was deeply-rooted in her and was unable to be removed.
"Kingston, do you know the feeling of being brainwashed?" Eevonne raised her teary eyes and looked at him.
Kingston immediately put her in his arms." Tell me, who is that boss? Where is he now?
Eevonne shook her head, smiled miserably, and said, "Kingston, don’t blame him.
Blame me."
"Don't talk about yourself like that, Eevonne!" Kingston said.
She shook her head firmly. "Kingston, the matter has already passed so long.
Gradually, I understood some people may never be office workers after working for their whole life. She would forever be in the production line. She would just be a part of the working class and at the bottom of society. However, she could still be respected by others. Do you know why? It is because she doesn't owe others anything. She has her feet on the ground. She is not vain. She would stay on her job and work hard to do her job well. She would use her outstanding results to gain the respect of others. She is not weak and she won't look down on her own circumstances. Even if others temporarily looked down on her, she would be able to endure it. She would wait for the harsh winter to pass and for spring to come. However, I am not that kind of girl, Kingston. Ever since I started working, I have had a thought in my mind. Since I have gone out to work, I have to get a job that could show off my identity. However, I had never thought of the fact that I was uncultured and my academic qualifications were not enough. Even if I was lucky and was promoted to become an administrative staff working in the office, I did not produce any results. Not only did I not produce any results, I even took another risk and made a fake diploma. My results and my fake diploma did not match each other. That was the second wrong move that I had made. The third wrong move was that even though that boss was harsh, he still let me stay in the end, which was an opportunity for me as well, and I should've learned from that painful mistake at that time and worked hard to do my job well. I had no money at that time, but other than sending money to my mother, I actually still have a few hundred dollars that were enough for me to scrape by. I shouldn't have compared myself to others at that time and overspent my money every month to buy so many pretty clothes to satisfy my vanity. At that time, I should have worked hard, learned a skill properly, learned another language, and done my best to improve myself. However, I did not do that. Not only did I not improve on my ability, but I even shamelessly asked to borrow money from my boss."
She continued. "Kingston, I can't blame others on this matter. I can only blame myself. I don’t hold a grudge against anybody. However, my only regret was that I shouldn't have stayed in that company at that time. I should have quit. However, I... I was already almost drowning in my boss's and my colleagues' criticism at that time. I no longer have the courage anymore. I was feeling so inferior that I no longer have any opinions anymore. I then obeyed my boss' words and continued staging in that company. Also, he let me stay working in the office, and he still let me be in charge of what I had usually been doing. At that time, I was so grateful for my boss that, to be honest, I truly admired him from the bottom of my heart. I felt that my boss was truly great. He had given me a new life. I worked extremely hard. I did more than others usually do, and I also worked hard to not let myself make mistakes. Despite being vain, inexperienced, truly uncultured, and without academic qualifications, I had an inborn advantage when it comes to learning the ropes. I was a very fast learner. All of the tasks that I was in charge of were no worse than people with the same position as I do.
Because the amount of work every month had already been properly allocated, I completed everything allocated to me every month. However, even so, they would still find fault with me at every turn. Regardless if it was the sample room, manufacturing room underground, or the finishing room, if anything were to go wrong in any of the steps, they would question me. They had always been very open when they questioned me. Even when something in the company went missing, they would directly call me by my name and ask me if I had stolen it."
Kingston suppressed the anger within. "It must not be you, right? Were things clarified after that?"
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