The Playboy’s Downfall novel Chapter 61

ISLA

Like every princess in a fairy tale, they all deserve a kiss from their prince charming. I got one. I experience having one. The difference was, I am a princess, I found my prince charming, but I knew that we’re not bound to the happily ever after.

I am being delusional to have Zero in my life but the truth always showed me that I can not have him. No matter how I try, I cannot have him. He even clears it. But every girl deserves to dream, right?

Can’t I?

I can dream, right? For just once in my life, I knew I have the right to claim something.

When Zero let go and stared at me, tears fell from my eyes.

“I’m sorry,” he uttered. There he goes again with his sorry, sorry, sorry—as if he did something to me.

I wiped the tears that fell on my cheeks with the back of my hand. “Why do you keep saying sorry to me? You didn’t do anything. And I’m sorry for acting weird today. It’s just that I’m adapting to your mood. Now, I will ask you this,” my eyes never left his, “are we still fine—I mean our agreement—”

“I want to stop the agreement,” he cut in which makes my eyes grow bigger because of surprise.

My forehead creased. “W-Why?” I stuttered.

Zero gazed in front while his left hand grasped the steering wheel. My eyes started to blur again.

I looked up and wiped my eyelid. I don’t want to lie for myself—I am hurting. It seems like a knife was pierced into my heart.

“I thought that this is not good between us. Especially that you have feelings for me,” he stated, still his eyes were in front.

If he’s sincere and if he meant what he said, then why can’t he look into my eyes?

“Say that while looking into my eyes,” I uttered. I don’t care if I sound so demanding but this is what it is. We’re breaking up—oh, damn, self, you’re not even in a relationship, the other corner of my mind shouted.

Yeah, we are just in a relation-SHIT!

Zero then turned to me, piercing his emotionless stares—I can see my reflection through his eyes—it was blank and it seems like it was taking me to the dark.

“I am sorry but I think we can’t continue this. I am afraid that I will just hurt you because I can’t return the love—”

“That’s not the point, Zero,” I scoffed. I laughed, sarcastically. “I agree with this and I am aware—I knew my place. I am not demanding you to do anything—even to love me back.” Damn, tears! I wiped them away again. “So, what if I have feelings for you? Did I demand your love? Did I ask you to love me back? So, you are aware that I am falling—”

“That’s why I want us to stop—I want us to stop doing this. I don’t want the feeling that you’re hurting—let’s just stop this. I was about to stop this after that night in the hotel but mom ask to bring you to her—I don’t know, okay, she said to me, she wants to see you,” he asserted.