True Fated Marriage novel Chapter 1489

When she said those words, Celeste felt like a weight had been lifted off her shoulders. It was as if a gap had been pried open, revealing the meshes of repressed feelings that nestled deep inside her heart.

She felt so much lighter and looked at Gary with a gentler gaze.

"There are many problems between the two of us. Maybe you don't think so, but I really feel like our relationship is a disaster."

"A disaster?"

Gary was shocked. He never thought she would use such a word to describe their relationship.

Gary's first reaction was to retort, but he held himself back.

He looked at Celeste quietly, and there was a flash of disgruntlement in his eyes, but he held his temper and said, "Well, tell me, how are we a disaster?"

"I have no confidence." Celeste could tell from his tone of voice that he was doubtful and displeased. He was puzzled and at her words, but he was enduring it.

She knew in her heart that Gary was trying really hard. He was trying to accommodate her.

She felt terrible.

She had wronged him when he was trying to match up with her. She wasn't qualified to be his girlfriend.

Gary frowned and asked, "Celeste, why do you not feel confident?"

"Because I'm not outstanding enough. Do you understand?" She felt inexplicably inferior, like she wasn't strong enough to be by his side.

Gary shook his head. "I don't understand. Why would you say that about yourself? You're an outstanding girl to me."

Celeste gave an ashen smile. "I don't have much confidence when it comes to staying calm like you. When I'm with you, I can keep up with your footsteps, but I'm not strong enough to remain as composed as you."

"I've been questioning myself. Can I really be your girlfriend? I'm not who I once was, do you understand how I feel?"

"Every time I start questioning you or myself, I start feeling irritated, I don't know what to do." "Whenever we run into something, I'm either questioning you or myself. I'm afraid of coming back to the same dilemma, or that I'll become someone even worse."

"I am afraid that you'll hate me, because every time you're angry with me, you'll comfort me, but you don't have the patience nor are you willing to tell me whatever it is you're up to."

Gary was stunned. He couldn't quite understand Celeste's thoughts.

"And you're leaving tomorrow, so all I want to say is, you should think about our relationship when you get back. If you think we can stay together, then we'll stay together. But if you think we can't, you can tell me straight. There's no need to force yourself." After careful consideration, Celeste made her choice. "I won't blame you. We can go back to the way we were before. Even if we're not together, I'll wish you the best."

"What do you mean that I don't need to force myself?" Gary frowned when he heard that. "Do you think that I'm just messing around with you? Do you think that I didn't give it a careful-enough thought when I asked you to be my girlfriend?"

"No, that's not what I meant." Celeste shook his head, feeling a little dejected.

"Alright then, tell me, what do you mean?" Gary punctuated his sentence word by word, holding in

his temper.

"I'm just saying that we should consider our relationship carefully. Are we compatible enough for us to stay together?" Celeste was ever so gentle. "We should reflect on this seriously. Gary, I'm not trying to be emotional about this. I'm just trying to calmly talk about these things. Don't get angry all because I'm saying things you don't want to hear."

"I'm not angry." Gary said in a deep voice, "My heart just feels uneasy."

Celeste pursed his lips and said softly, "You're a proud person. On so many occasions, when you don't want to listen to me, you'll keep thinking you're right."

Was that how it was?

Gary frowned slightly.

"Perhaps you're right. It seems like it's hard for you to be with me." Gary said softly. He never thought about this before, but now, he had to reflect on it.

Celeste's absent reply acted as a silent agreement.

It was true that she was strained sometimes.

Love is fickle, you worry about what you may or may not have, it's bound to be exhausting.

Seeing Celeste's silence, Gary laughed and said,

"Looks like you still have more thoughts in your head. But I can tell you why I'm angry, Celeste."

Celeste was surprised and looked at him instinctively.

"Because my heart has never thought of anyone else. The woman I love has always been you, and I've always thought we were compatible. Every time I got mad at you was because I felt like you didn't understand me." He laughed in mockery at himself with eyes full of desolation.

He looked like he had been wronged.

"You didn't understand me", those four simple words shocked Celeste. Her eyes were full of hurt, her whole body was stiff, and all her attention was focused on those four words. After a long while, she snapped out of her daze.

She nodded gingerly. "That's right, I don't understand you, I never understood you."

Gary looked at her as she lowered her eyes. His long eyelashes trembled faintly and laughed self-mockingly as he said, "Perhaps we care more about ourselves, you and I."

Celeste was stunned for a moment. When he looked up, she saw his eyes were filled with sorrow.

She nodded. "Yes, maybe I have never understood you, and maybe I never will."

After speaking, her eyes started stinging and she wanted to cry. She didn't want to show him how useless she was.