"At first, I was just curious about you. The people I met since I was a child were all in the same circle as me. Only you, who suddenly broke in, were an exception." Louie said softly.
My initial panic slowly calmed down. I understood that the reason why he was different from me was just because of the difference between me and the people around me.
"It's normal. You're an exception to me."
Louie shook his head at me. "No, you've already met Harrison before. How could you think that I'm an exception?"
"That's because you are different from inside to outside. You should know this better than anyone else, shouldn't you?" I explained.
Although I explained it in this way, I didn't know it at all in my heart, because this question was not even clear to me.
After all, with Harrison's presence, Louie was basically not surprised by me at all. Then why should I have an argument with Harrison because of his existence?
For the first time, I became suspicious of the situation caused by my own hands...
"Chelsea, there are some problems that you can't avoid just because you want to. I believe that we both know how I feel about you. Harrison is right. I have never thought of giving you up completely."
After hearing Louie's words, I was not shocked at all. On the contrary, I was very calm.
I said to him lightly, "Then you should be more clear about my decision."
"But you didn't choose to leave me. Isn't this enough? If your relationship with Harrison is really so indestructible, can you allow me to stay with you for so long?" Louie questioned me.
"Because I treat you as my friend, my best friend." Looking at Louie in front of me, I answered seriously.
I didn't expect things to go like this, and I didn't expect Louie's feelings for me to last for so long. I thought he had taken back his feelings for me, but I didn't understand until now. I thought it was just me.
After thinking for a while, I said again, "You have been with me since I was a child. The one who has never left is Sienna, and you are the second one."
"Maybe it's because the tragedy has lasted for too long, so when you helped me a lot, I accepted it from uneasiness to peace of mind. I reminded myself again and again that you are just my good friend, so you always helped me."
These words were not so much an explanation to him as an analysis of himself, forcing him to face the fact that he was unwilling to face before.
Harrison was right. I was with him, but I couldn't bear to part with Louie's care for me. To put it worse, I was just stepping on two sides.
While I was thinking, Louie suddenly smiled and said, "I'm willing to help you, and I never expect you to repay me."
"But this is unfair to you. I don't want to go on like this, and I don't want the three of us to get hurt in the end." At this time, I thought it very clearly and decided to give up all my previous thoughts.
Louie chuckled at first, and then he stood in front of me.
He looked at me expressionlessly. "What if I say I don't care?"
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