If I were to say that I was angry, not only would it be Aviana, but even Harrison might think that I was making a big fuss out of a minor issue. However, if I were to say that I wasn't angry, I wouldn't be able to overcome this hurdle in my heart.
I looked at Aviana and said seriously, "Do you think I'm angry or not? I really don't know how to answer."
After saying this, I laughed and said, "Everyone has a past. If I keep holding on to the other's past, I may live in pain every day. I am wondering why he didn't stay with me at that time and why he was good to others."
"But even though I know I'm not in a dilemma, I still feel sad, especially when I see him meet his former lover."
A look of surprise appeared on Aviana's face. Obviously, she did not expect me to say it so directly.
In fact, I don't want to be so direct, but you don't have to tell me.
But since he had already said it, he might as well say it!
I looked at Harrison and said word by word, "You should know the bad things about me best. But since you have decided to stay with me, I hope you don't waver in your heart. Just keep it like this."
Harrison looked at me and did not answer.
I tried very hard to get an answer from his eyes, but no matter how hard I looked at it, I couldn't see it. In the end, I could only give up in disappointment.
It's great now. I've given Aviana a warning that she can't get close to me.
"You are right, but the past between me and Harrison can't be erased, let alone be replaced by others." Aviana suddenly said.
I was slightly stunned, feeling a sense of powerlessness all over my body.
Aviana said as if there was no one else around, "After so many years, Harrison and I are almost the pillars of each other's lives. Whoever leaves will feel empty. So, Chelsea, I hope you don't have so many things to worry about."
"It's best to cherish now, isn't it?"
I can't answer her question, and I don't even have the courage to ask Harrison.
"Have you finished?" Harrison, who had been silent for a long time, asked.
Gao Yang spread out his hands. "How long have I been unable to interrupt? What else do you want me to say?"
"I've finished what I should say. Do I need to add anything?" Aviana looked at Harrison with a smile, not embarrassed at all.
Thinking about it, if I said such words in front of Harrison, I would be so shy that my face would turn red. But Aviana wouldn't. It was as if nothing had happened and she could talk to Harrison normally.
Harrison glanced at her. When I saw them looking at each other, I couldn't help feeling uncomfortable.
I really wanted to cry, but in my heart, I told myself that I couldn't cry here. Even if I really wanted to cry, I couldn't cry in front of them.
Just as I was trying to comfort him, Harrison walked up to me and called out my name gently.
I looked up at his face and asked blankly, "What's wrong?"
When I heard my voice, I felt like I was going to cry. Realizing this, I quickly shut my mouth and lowered my head.
As soon as I lowered my head, my chin was lifted by his index finger. Then, following his movements, I slowly raised my head. Harrison's case report came into view again. I licked my dry mouth and asked, "What's the matter?"
Harrison lowered his head and kissed me on the lips without saying a word. I subconsciously grabbed his arm and didn't let my legs go soft.
The moment he kissed me, my brain almost died.
Everything around me had nothing to do with me. In my heart and in my eyes, there was only Harrison. I slowly closed my eyes, and a teardrop slipped down from the corners of my eyes and flowed into my mouth. I tasted the bitter taste of tears.
Harrison seemed to feel my tears, and his kiss deepened.
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