The Alpha and His Contract Luna novel Chapter 6

Mayra

Spending the night with Darren was more than I could’ve hoped for. For the first time since captivity I felt treasured. I felt safe. I felt like I was on the top of the world.

For some insane reason I wanted to stay with him. And if he had asked me to, I probably would have. After I got out of captivity, I thought that I would never let a man touch me. That I will never get close to any man.

With Darren I don’t even know how it happened. One minute we were bumping into each at the hospital when I went to see my therapist, and the next we were falling into bed together.

He managed to get past my defenses and despite myself, a part of me wants more. Wants to be with him.

“Mayra, what are you thinking about?” Alice, my therapist, pulls me back to the present.

“Nothing much” I answered.

It was in the afternoon and I was in one of my therapy sessions. Don’t get me wrong, Alice is a wonderful woman. I just felt like our talks weren’t really helping me like they should.

After all, Raya was still out of control.

“We both know that’s a lie” she smiles.

“Alright, fine, I was thinking about Darren…I spent the night at his place yesterday”

“And…” she urges, leaning forward.

“It was actually really great… I didn’t have nightmares”

She nods her head. She knows what I’m talking about given I told her that I have them. That the memories usually come when I’m most vulnerable. At night.

During the day, I can suppress them but when I’m unconscious that’s a very different story.

“Have you told him about your nightmares…have you shared any of your traumas?”

I look at her like she is crazy. Like she said the most absurd thing in the world.

“Why the hell would I do that?” I ask puzzled.

She sighs as if she’s tired. As if she’s praying to the goddess for patience.

“Mayra, we talked about this…At one point or another you will have to tell the man you decide to date about what happened to you and at this point I’m starting to believe that man is Darren”

I get what she’s saying but she’s also wrong. I’m not planning to ever date. And Darren is definitely not that man. Sure I would love for him to be but I have too much baggage. He needs a she-wolf that is whole. Not one that is broken.

I shake my head but she speaks before I can utter a word.

“Putting that aside, I’m here to help you Mayra, but I can't do that if you don’t work with me. You mentioned a few things here and there but when I try to push deeper you close up. The only thing you’ve mentioned is your nightmares and even then you don’t talk about what they entail.”

“But…” I go to say but she cuts me off

“You never talk about your time in captivity. About what happened to you. You say absolutely nothing but you expect me to help. How am I going to do that if I don’t know the whole story?”

“I know that I…”