After Neil left, I was in a real funk, wondering if he would ever come back to me and if he would prefer to be with me since we've been together for so long.
He said he loved me, but could that easily change because of Karina?
But reality was a bitter pill to swallow. The day I moved out of Rosemont, Neil was nowhere to be seen. There were no calls and no texts. The movers were bustling about, clearing out the villa; my parents were checking the inventory, and I was sitting in the garden with Daisy, eyes closed, taking a breather.
"Dr. Russel?" My mom suddenly called out.
I opened my eyes to see Russel Dawson standing at the gate. He was wearing a white short-sleeved shirt and light blue pants, looking fresh as a daisy.
What was he doing there? I was taken aback.
Most of the things from my family had been moved out, and my mom didn't have a chance to offer Russel a cup of coffee, so he just sat in the garden, shooting the breeze. Before long, the movers called my mom away, leaving Russel and me alone.
It was quite hot under the sun, and I was breaking a sweat. Russel handed me a tissue and said, "Wipe your face."
I took the tissue and wiped my face, then asked, "What brings you here?"
"I heard your family business is being sold, and you're all moving out?" Russel asked, cool as a cucumber.
"You're so concerned about my family. I'm touched." Maybe because I was leaving, my mom stopped pushing me to be with Russel, so I was a bit nicer to him.
"How could I not know about such a big event, unless I'm too busy to care." Russel said with a smile.
I was silent. Yes, only those who were too busy to care wouldn't know. Neil had been busy taking care of Karina and didn't have time to care about our family. The only time he came to me was when he learned from Karina that I couldn't get pregnant again.
What a joke.
I once lost to Bonnie, a woman I had never met.
Then I lost to Karina, a woman who came back from the dead.
Every time I thought about it, I couldn't help but laugh at myself. I was born a side character, but I insisted on dreaming of being the lead.
I kept quiet, petting Daisy's head while listening to Russel, "No matter where you go, I'll find you until the day you're ready to reconsider me."
"Russel, don't waste your time; don't forget about Chloe Reynolds. A woman died for you, you know?" I reminded Russel seriously. Even though Chloe had it coming, there was a shadow of a life between us. If we were together, the public criticism might be too much to bear.
"Her death was mainly due to her pessimism.” Russel showed little remorse, saying, "I won't give up the most important person to me for someone who's not important."
It was really hard to change Russel's perspective on that.
I shook my head, "I'm not your most important person. Now that Neil knows I can't get pregnant, he probably won't have anything to do with me. Your competitive desire can end here."
"What competitive desire?" Russel's expression hardened, "You see my feelings for you as a competition between him and me? A desire to win?"
I shrugged, not denying it.
Russel stared at me for a moment, then broke into a smile, "Then I need to prove to you more that I really like you, not some so-called competitive desire or conquest."
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