My words had undoubtedly struck a nerve with Karina.
Honestly, how much love could have possibly endured between a couple that had been apart for so many years? If it hadn't been for their child, it's doubtful they'd have found their way back to each other so quickly.
Leaving everything else aside, Neil had always been responsible in this regard.
"The child is just one important factor. But the emotions between Neil and me, you can't possibly understand." Although Karina's face had paled a little, her tone remained steady. She gave a faint smile, "Perhaps you think that since Neil and I were together for only a few months, we couldn't have developed deep feelings. But the depth of a relationship isn't about time, it's about feelings. I think you know this better than anyone, right?"
Karina looked into my eyes; her own regained their sparkle and her smile was radiant.
I had loved Neil for many years, and I'd never captured his heart. If it hadn't been for my rebirth, I would have continued down that path of unrequited love.
So, I really did understand that love couldn't be forced by time.
"Whether I understand or not isn't important, what matters is that you believe the feelings between you two haven’t changed." I had found tranquility now. Karina's words didn't faze me, and her attempts to provoke me by coming to me were futile.
"Yes, I understand Neil best. He may appear to be a playboy, but in reality, he's deeply committed." Karina nodded lightly, speaking gently of her understanding of Neil, "And he's not the arrogant man that everyone sees; he has a soft core. Take you for example, he felt guilty about how he treated you back then."
I said nothing, only looked at Karina with a puzzled expression. I didn't understand what she was talking about.
I knew every word she said, but when she put them together I didn't seem to comprehend.
Karina noticed my confusion and gave an apologetic smile. "Sorry, I wasn't clear. When you were interning in college and he started dating me, he felt guilty. He knew you liked him, but love can't be forced, so he couldn't reciprocate your feelings."
Really? So she was talking about something that happened so long ago.
I suddenly realized that the things that had happened in my past life couldn't touch me anymore, but the stupid things I did a long time ago could still stir up ripples in my heart.
"Wow, I'm really touched." I gave a small, indifferent smile.
If Karina hadn't brought it up, I wouldn't have known this.
I had always thought that Neil was indifferent to my affections, that it was all one-sided, so he wouldn't feel any guilt or unease. Just like what he said after we got married: everything was my own doing.
"When I learned you were pursuing Neil, a lot of people knew. I considered not competing with you, but some feelings can't be controlled. When I found out that the Whitmore family wanted Neil to marry you, I realized how serious the issue of social status was. Fortunately, I have let go of the past." As Karina finished, she let out a deep breath of relief.
But why was she telling me all this?
If I told people that I had died once and been reborn, I'd probably make headlines around the world and be fought over by different countries for research.
I was pleased that at this moment, I could still find some dark humor. It proved that I had freed myself from the shackles of the past and wouldn't fall into sadness over some words.
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