Emotions are the most unpredictable things in this world, even when you don't speak, they can be seen in your eyes.
I know this feeling all too well. How could I not understand Russel?
But haven't I overcome this too? And I feel like I've completely healed from the emotional drain!
After a while, I noticed that Russel's eyes were turning red. He was desperately trying to keep his eyes open, as if to prevent tears from falling. At that moment, he looked wronged, filled with resentment for not being understood, his eyelashes quivering, already wet.
For a moment, I didn't know what to do. It seemed like the first time I had ever seen Russel like this.
"Russel, are...are you okay?" I hurriedly grabbed a tissue, wanting to wipe the corner of his eyes, but he avoided me.
"I'm fine, I know you've always been firm in your decision, never changing. But I don’t want to give up. Other than you, I can't fall in love with anyone else. To spend my life with a woman I don't love would be like living with a second Chloe." Russel's words were fine until the last sentence which sent a shiver down my spine.
Looking at me, his eyes had regained their calm, even carrying a hint of coldness.
I felt like he was threatening me.
Chloe had lost her life, but she was truly devoted to Russel.
Hasn't Russel ever felt guilty about Chloe?
Such a statement was too extreme - either he never gave up on me, or he was cruel to anyone else who liked him.
"What do you mean by that? Russel, don't be so extreme, okay? You're not supposed to be like this!" I was getting agitated too.
"You know what kind of person I am. You know almost everything I've done, don't you?" Russel sighed softly. "I didn't want to be like this, but there are things that if you don't fight for them, there's no hope at all."
I was left speechless by his words, having seen his methods in my past life. He was really no different from Neil; his only downfall was that Bonnie loved Neil in my past life.
After saying these things, Russel turned and left, leaving his flowers on the table. I looked at them for a while but didn't pick them up.
...
Due to the conflict in the hospital, Russel and I hadn't seen each other for several days, and we hadn't been in contact. It was as if we were intentionally avoiding each other.
I seized this opportunity to take a breather and told Stella and the others about what had happened here.
Stella raged in the group chat: [Louis, that bastard, I'm going to hire someone to castrate him!]
Barbara: [I didn't expect him to be that kind of person, disgusting. But why did he treat you like that?]
Alicia, who was abroad, was still concerned about me: [Is it because of Malinda?]
I didn't tell them about Louis possibly being a Whitmore family bastard. This news would eventually come out, but until the truth was revealed, I didn't want to create unnecessary speculation.
Then Stella tagged me in the chat: [Rena, Mitch is back in Eldoria. Isn't Karina's son having a birthday? He seems to be attending.]
I thought of Hiram's birthday party, which I had no plans of attending.
I replied: [Yes, he's turning seven.]
Then the group started gossiping about Karina and Hiram. I occasionally chimed in, but didn't want to get too involved, as it would affect my mood.
Just then, my phone rang. Seeing Neil's name, I really didn't want to answer, so I left it be. But soon he sent a message: [My mom is sick, I need your help.]
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