The Billionaires Desires novel Chapter 1

Nathan's POV

GUILTY!!!

That's how I feel right now. "I feel as guilty as hell"

I mean, What the hell did I just do??

How could take a lady innocence on our first day together?

That’s so bad!

I waited for her to fall asleep, then I’m open my drawer and brought out a pack of my favorite Treasurer cigarette. I got my lighter from the dresser before walking out through the door that leads to my balcony. I have a good view of the city from my balcony and I always love the sight. I stood there and enjoyed the beautiful view while I took out a stick of cigarette and lit it. I’m not a big fan of smoking, but right now, I think I really need it to calm my nerves because I’m slowly going insane. I never knew sex could be so amazing, so terrific. Hillary Futon just made me feel like I’m on top of the world.

I've always seen her hanging around with some of her friends. She doesn’t party around or indulge herself in any of the fun games in school, she is more like a book worm, a nerd. And now that I think about it, I think I’ve always had a thing for her, I just didn’t show it because I am so used to locking every emotions within me. I found myself drenched in a cold sweat as I kept thinking of how I just stole her innocence.

My heart was heavy and in turmoil as though there was a knot in it that could not be dispelled. There is something about her that always gets to me whenever I'm with her. I've never felt like this before. I've never met someone that is so attractive, yet so conservative. I smiled as I remembered the look on her face when she saw the blood on the bed, proof of her lost innocence. I can't believe she felt ashamed of it when she should be so proud about it.

She was a virgin. A pure and innocent virgin. Yet she gave up her innocence to me, despite knowing of my reputation as a cold-hearted, emotionless guy. I don't even know what moved me to decide to bring her back here, to my private room. I've never brought a woman to my private room before because I know fully well that am not committed to any relationship. I've never even spent an entire night with a woman. I usually leave the hotel room before morning, while they are still sleeping.

Yes, you heard me correctly, I’m not an emotionless monster, like they say. I do not suffer from Alexithymia like I made them believe. I do have a problem with girls, I mean, I hate being around them because they are just tricky and conniving. Every girl around me claims to love and care about me, but I can see through their lies and deception. They are simply trying to get my last name and the wealth that comes with that name. I could always see the greed and ambition in their eyes and it pisses me off when they try to pass it as love, it’s so fucking annoying.