The Rebirth of the Betrayed Alpha novel Chapter 76

Walking around the council underground, Alexandra glances around the room where the ceremony was going to take place in hours. Averting her eyes from the ring to the stairs imagines Nathaniel sitting in one of those seats cheering at her, a smile creeps on her lips and she pushes it away, without a doubt that he wasn't coming.

He didn't know about the ceremony and there was no way he could come, Alexandra on her part hasn't invited him. Nathaniel would be in his pack probably doing what he loves to do best.

"Is alright Alexandra, get him out your head and focus" she mutters under her breath, breathes in the warm breeze, exhales, closing her eyes for a moment. She opens back her eyes and turns around, jumping as she catches sight of Nathaniel standing by the entrance gawking at her.

"I wasn't thinking about you so you didn't have to come" She states thinking it was an image created by her mind.

Dropping his gaze, Nathaniel looks around the large room.

"Fancy room"

"Is for the ceremony now go before people think I'm going crazy"

"Why would they think so?"

Alexandra raises her brow, confused. "What do you mean why will they think so"

"I didn't tell you to come remember and for now I blocked my mind from thinking about you so you have no reason to be here"

"I don't understand"

"What don't you understand when you told me yourself if I don't want you to appear I should stop thinking about you"

"I never told you anything of such"

Startled, Alexandra takes a step backward. "What do you mean you never–" she chokes on her word realizing she was staring down at Nathaniel himself.

"Nathaniel is that you?"

"In the flesh" He takes a step forward and she takes a step backward, her muscles weaken.

"What's wrong Alexandra? Have you been thinking about me?"

"I have not" she states hating to not have recognized him.

"Have you seen my face on other people's faces?"

"Stop it" she bites her lower lips

"Stop what? You are the one who called me here"

"I didn't"

"You did"

"I did no such thing. Why will I call you here?"

"Because you missed me and desperately wanted to see me"

Alexandra rolls her eyes. "Don't get ahead of yourself I didn't miss you"

"Really?"

"Yes"

"So if I kiss you, you won't kiss me back with fervor because you haven't seen me in days"

A strange feeling engulfs her body and Alexandra's adrenaline rushes up. "Fine, you've figured that out, I missed you. I missed you so desperately that I wanted to see you, there you have it now what's your point?"

Nathaniel smiles. "Did you miss me?"

"Yes I did" she states with a hint of sincerity "I missed you so much that I wished I could see you even if it was from afar"

"I'm not that sort of man"

"What sort of man?" She bites gently on her lower lips.

"The sort of man you admire from afar. If you want me then you earn me"

"How am I supposed to do?"

"You're complicated Alexandra"

"Complication is kinda my thing"

"Do you want to earn me?"

"Yes," she takes a step towards him, closing up the space between them.

"Really?"

"Yes I want to do that" she bites at her lips again, licking it

"Then you can start by not doing that except of course you want me to kiss you here and now. Then I may not be able to control myself"

Staring into his eyes, Alexandra could feel his heartbeat and she was aware that he could hear hers as well.

"Earn me" he whispers, holding her hand and gently placing it on his hard chest.

"What are you doing?"

"Can you hear that?" Alexandra glances around, she couldn't deny the fact that she could hear him.

"No"

"Don't mess around with me" He states sternly

"Fine I can hear it, the thumping beat of your heart is beautiful"

"It's wounded"

Without hesitation, Alexandra slips her hand away. "Is that why you are here?"

"You know why is wounded right"

"Don't torture me, I already have enough problems as it is"

"I'm not torturing you, is your conscience tormenting you"

Dropping her gaze on him, looks at her feet, overwhelmed with guilt.

"Fine I did something wrong"

"Is that all you have to say"

"I'm not good at this" she runs her hand through her hair

"Why?"

"I never want to apologize, to try again"

"I'm your mate"

"That's what it even harder" Tears crowd her eyes.

"Hey what's wrong?" Nathaniel closes the space between them but Alexandra steps back.

"I don't want to try again because …" she pauses

Curiously he asked. "Because what?"

"Because I'm never good at this, at least not anymore"

"You are never good at what?"

"Apologizing to you when I'm in the in the

"Why?"

"I don't know it just so happens and you know the hardest part"

"What is it?"

"I feel like shit afterward"

"Like the other day"

"All I want to do is to run and tell you what's in my head but I can't and is not my ego or anything"

"Then what is it?"

"Maybe is the fact that you are my mate"