Planned Baby novel Chapter 36

“She’s confident because you and I are still single. If you want her to back off, then marry me, Ellie.”

He was serious when he said that. I know he means it.

“I can’t marry you. I’m sorry.”

I was about to go to my room when he grabbed me.

“Tell me the reason, why you can’t marry me.” He said in a cold voice.

I almost shiver because of the coldness of his voice.

“I told you, you can’t marry me because of the kids. It’s not fair for the both of us.”

“I told you, Ellie, so many times that I like you. I don’t think I am just like you. I am sure that for the longest time, I am already in love with you, Ellie. I know you can feel it too.”

He touched my face. I can see the love in his eyes. But I just can’t accept. I refuse to believe it, not again. His face went closer to mine. He kissed me. It was a sweet and gentle kiss. I kiss him back like how I usually do.

“Say something, my Quinn.” He whispers.

I flinched. He called me ‘my Quinn’ again. Did he finally remember me?

“What do you want me to say?” I whisper back.

“That you love me too. You always kissing back, meaning you also feel something towards me.”

I push him away. I gave him a cold stare then smirked. “We can always kiss and remain as friends. I got that from you, remember?”

He looks confused as if he was hearing weird things from me. Then he clenched his jaw. “I am not your college first love, Ellie. Don’t compare me to that bastard!”

I laugh bitterly. “Are you seriously don’t remember me? I just removed my eyeglasses now, but my looks are still the same. And my name? Can’t you even remember it? Am I that unworthy to you?”

“W-what are you saying, Ellie? I don’t know what you are talking about.”

“La Salle, Business management, a nerd girl with eyeglasses, the girl who loves to draw, the girl you always pester until two got close with each other, the girl you encourage to take up architecture and engineering because that is what she was passionate about, you advise her to take up business management as her masters. Still now ringing a bell?”

He remained to look confused as if trying hard to recall the things I told him. “I really can’t remember Ellie; I knew that something is missing after I had my accident.”

I look at him in disbelief. “You didn’t tell you had amnesia!”

“Because I didn’t know I had! But now you are telling me stories that I don’t recall, so I’m guessing that maybe I had amnesia. I will go to the doctor who attended me when I had an accident. You can come with me if you want Ellie to prove to you that I was telling the truth.”

I sighed. “Fine. Let’s go to the doctor tomorrow.”

The next morning, Ulie and I went to the doctor he was referring to last night.

“I am sure that you had no amnesia when you had an accident. But you had dissociative amnesia after you committed suicide a week after you woke up from being comatose for three months. You were a bit confused when you woke up and found out that you committed suicide. We run some tests for you since we suspect that you had that kind of amnesia because of your reaction after you woke up. I think it's best to ask your parents about it.” The doctor explained to us.

“What’s a dissociative amnesia means doc?” Ulie asks for clarification.

“Dissociative amnesia or psychogenic amnesia is a kind of amnesia where a person blocks out a certain information, mostly associated with stress or traumatic events, leaving a person unable to remember important personal information.” The doctor explained further.

“You had a session with a psychiatrist when you were in the US right?” The doctor asks.

I nodded. “Yes, my parents arranged it for me.”

“You committed suicide Ulie?” That is the only thing that stuck in my mind.

I needed to ask him or else I will not stop thinking about it. I knew he was guilty about the accident but to that extent of committing suicide. I shiver at the thought of Ulie doing that.

“I was not sure why I did that. My parents told me about my accident. I remember it but it’s not that clear. I feel like something important is missing.”