Planned Baby novel Chapter 62

“Are they Pierce and Penny Quinlyn Cabello that I know?” I asked Quen when we were the only ones left in the room.

When nodded his head. “I went to their wake as your representative. I saw Penelope there.”

I was not able to talk not great after hearing what he just said.

I am sure that my Quinn is devastated by the loss of her parents. I know how much she loves her parents.

And now that they are gone, I can’t imagine how she will be able to cope up with this. And how will she accept the fact that I am the reason why she lost her parents.

“How is she?” The only thing I said.

Quen heaved a sigh. “I guess she is coping up well. It was her graduation day when it happened. She was about to give her speech at her graduation because she graduated as summa cum laude when she received a call that her parents had an accident and were dead on arrival.”

“She was able to finish her speech and went straight to the hospital to see their parents. As per the people there, Penelope never shed tears on them.“ Quen added.

“She is not coping up well,” I said.

Quen's forehead creased. “What do you mean? I saw her myself in the wake, she was handling her well.”

I look at Quen intently. “But she never shed a tear you said, right?”

Quen nodded but looks confused.

“Then she was not alright. She was emotionally numb and that is not healthy for her.” I told Quen.

Quen looks more confused by my answer.

“I read it once in an article online about being emotionally numb when you suddenly lose someone you love,” I explained to him.

“It may seem like a normal reaction to someone who loses someone unexpectedly but still, it is important to make sure that the person can grieve well. It involves understanding and processing the loss.” I added.

“If my Quinn will not be able to grieve properly, then she might lead to acute depression, anxiety, self-blame, and many more.”

Thinking those things makes me worried about her.

I started to remove all things that the hospital put in my body.

“What are you doing?” Quen started to panic.

“I need to see my Quinn! She needs me! She needs my help!” I told him while I continue to remove all the apparatus in my body.

Quen presses the emergency button. “You need to calm down bro. You need to take a rest. You just woke up from a coma. You can do that after you are completely healed.”

I shake my head. “No! I can’t wait anymore! I have been in a coma for three months which only means that my Quinn is dealing with everything on her own. She needs me right now!”

“How can you say that when you are the reason why her parents died? She might loathe you instead of needing your comfort!” Quen shouted why trying his best to stop me.

A few minutes later, a group of nurses entered my room. They all try to stop me from moving. Then I saw one of the nurses get a syringe and inject it on me.

I suddenly felt dizzy and sleepy. “My Quinn! My Quinn needs me!” That is the last thing I uttered before everything went blank.

When I woke up, I was alone in the room. I remember what Quen has said. He is right, when my Quinn found out that I am the reason why her parents died, she will surely loathe me.

I was clearly at fault. If she decided to sue me, I will not defend myself. I will do my best to receive the highest punishment that I can get. I will hold justice for her.

Then I thought of my parents. I am sure that they will not agree with me. They will do their best for me to win the case if my Quinn decided to sue me.

I am afraid not because I might end up in jail but by the fact that my Quinn will never be able to forgive me.

Of all people, I know how much she loves her parents. She will do everything for them.

And I don’t know if I can accept the loathe that she will have for me. I don’t know if I even deserve her forgiveness. What I did is not something that people can easily forgive.

One thing is for sure, I want her to receive the justice that she deserves.

I remove all the apparatus in my body and I did my best to go to the comfort room. When I saw the mirror, I gave all my strength to punch it. I ignore the bleeding in my hands.

I need to bleed more. I said to myself.

I pick up one of the broken glasses from the mirror and cut my wrist.

“Ulysses? Big bro?”

I got panic when I heard Kaela’s voice. I cut myself more. I was thinking of my Quinn when I am doing it.

My Quinn this is for you! I will take revenge for you!

“Brother!!!”

***

“Why did he try to kill himself?” I can hear my mom’s voice.

“Maybe because of guilt? Someone died because of him.” Karma said.

“But it was not his fault. He doesn’t want it to happen.” My mom tried her best to defend me.

I opened my eyes and saw a white light and white walls. I am sure that I am in a hospital. But why am I here? What did the hell happen?