Planned Baby novel Chapter 64

I woke up with a heavy heart. I look at myself in the mirror. My eyes were swollen from crying all night.

I still can’t believe that this is all happening. I can’t believe the person I entrusted my heart to broke it again for the second time.

I regret meeting him.

My phone rang. It's the phone we gave to the twins.

“Hello?”

“Mommy! Where are you? Why are you not staying in the house? Are you with dad?” Amelia asked.

My eyes started to well up again. “I... I was at your grandparents’ mausoleum. I dream of them and they said that they miss me. So I might stay here for a while.”

“What will happen to us then? Dad is still in the hospital. And you are staying at grandma and grandpa’s mausoleum.” Amelia asked. Her voice sounds so sad.

I bit my lower lips. I’m sorry my children. I can’t meet you right now. I’m feeling devastated and I might not be able to hide it in front of you. I may hate your dad but I don't want you guys to know what happened in the past. I don't want to pass this burden on you. Just give mommy time to heal. A time to recover. A time to be brave again to move forward.

“I will ask your Auntie Kaela to pick you up. You will stay in Escarrer’s mansion for the time being.” I said instead.

“Okay, mom. But I hope you will come home soon. We miss you and dad. We love you!”

“I love you two, my children!” I said then I end the call.

I started to sob again. My heart feels so heavy. If I were to choose, I wanted to leave this world and be with my parents because I miss them so much. But my children are the ones stopping me from doing it.

My children are my new life now. If there is one thing I don’t regret meeting Ulie, it's my children. I will never regret having Amelia and Alistair in my life. They are my joy and my strength to move forward.

I’m sorry kids if I can’t be with you right now. Just give me this time, I will make it up to you.

I asked for three days vacation leave in the office. I know I won’t be able to work properly because of what I am going through right now.

Three days have past and I need to face the reality.

“You look sick!” Luna commented as soon as she saw me.

She followed me in my office just to say that.

“Hey, are you okay? Do you want to share something? Or hug to make you feel better?” Luna offered.

I look at her and my eyes started to well up. “I really need a hug right now.”

Luna went to me and gave me a warm hug. I hug her back and I lost it. I cried like there’s no tomorrow.

I badly need someone to comfort me because I feel like I am already on my limit.

“Hush now Ellie. I heard that Ulie will be discharged tomorrow. He will be alright.” Luna said to comfort me.

“I don’t care about him!” I hissed.

Luna broke from our hug and frowned. “What are you saying? Isn’t he the reason why you are crying this hard?”

I rolled my eyes. “Why will I cry for that guy?! He is a murderer!”

“W-what? What are you saying, Ellie?”

My eyes widen from the realization of what I just spoke. Luna looks at me intently.

“What do you mean by the murderer? Why did you call Ulysses a murderer? What the hell happened?” Luna said in a cold voice.

I sighed aloud. I had no choice but to share the truth with Luna. I trust her. I know she can keep a secret.

I told Luna everything that Ulie told me. From the time I left him and transferred to another school to the accident.

I also told her what favor my parents asked Ulie.

“What a twist. Are you sure?” Luna asks still not able to believe what I just said.

“Yes. Do you think Ulie will make himself a murderer if it wasn’t true?!” I hissed.

“I’m sorry Ellie. It's just so hard to believe. Also, Ulie has a problem with his memories. It might not be the truth, I mean it might be just his hallucination or something.”

Luna was still hopeful that Ulie was just hallucinating. I also wish that he was just hallucinating. But no, I am done fooling myself because of him.