Where We Belong novel (Ava and Blaze) Book 1 novel Chapter 48

Chapter 48

Because I'm starving". Nodding my head yes I grabbed his hand and pulled myself up not realising how close it brought us. No matter the shit that happened between us the tension between us never seemed to fade. The slight tingles I got in the pit of my stomach or the way my breath hitched with the way he looked at me. I couldn't brake through our stare and by the looks of it neither could he. "We shouldn't" he groaned at the same time "We can't" slipped past my lips. "But why..-" "Do we want to" I finished for him. "Its better we don't" I whispered finally looking away from him. "Better for who?" He challenged grabbing my face softly so I would look at him. "Its better for the both of us" I said turning and making my way inside. Sleeping with him would only make things worse. No matter how much I said I didn't want him my heart betrayed me every time.

"You have no food he-.."

"You said you loved me" Cutting me off he closed the door behind him. This was the very conversation I wanted to avoid. I told him I loved him not meaning to say it out loud. He got me so wound up it slipped past my lips. "You give me the impression you can't stand to be in the same room as me. Did you mean it?". I had no words, I didn't know what to say. For the first time ever I didn't have a come back didnt have an answer. So I did what I normally do these days I ran. Feeling the pressure of his hands on my hips he spun me around and locked his lips onto my neck. " You can't run from me Ava because I'll always be the one chasing you. In case you've forgot darlin' I know you, know you better than you think I do. I know what you like, I know when your sad, I know how to make you laugh. I know when you sink those little teeth into your bottom lip your either nervous, thinking or turned on" He whispered bringing his hand up to free my lip "I know how to make your little body quiver, I know how to put you over the edge. How those sexy legs shake just as your about to-.."

"Stop it" I said my voice barely a whisper "Please just stop it".

"Its the truth sweets and you know it". Was it the truth? Did my body only feel like this when I was around him? Was it because he was the only person I had been with sexually? "What if its not? What if all of what you just said is because you're the only person I've slept with". Catching the look of surprise and maybe confusion on his face his eyebrows dropped like they always did when he was thinking. "How come I can't rhyme of anything about you? I don't really know you Blaze and you won't let me".

"Thought you were seeing someone?". Rolling my eyes I shook my head "What does that have to do with anything I've just said? You seem to know all of these things about me yet I didn't even know your real name". And this is the part where we would usually argue but not today. I didn't want a fight with him I just wanted answers. To have a normal conversation before I walked out. "You said you've only slept with me. Surely pretty boys dying to tap your fine ass". Pushing him of I put some distance between us "And that right there is why we fight. Why do you have to say stuff like that? Not everything revolves around sex. Can't a guy actually be interested in me for me instead of wanting to tap my fine ass as you so nicely put it".

"I'm just being straight with you darlin'. If he ain't trying then he must be gay".

"And is that what you've been doing all this time, trying? Working your way in so you could get into my panties? In case you've forgot you succeed" I huffed folding my arms over my chest. "I care about you Ava. You might not think it but I do. If it was just your pussy I wanted I'd have had it plenty of times by now and of course last night since you practically begged me-.."

"I didn't beg you for anything" I snapped clenching my teeth together "I got drunk I was horny and you were there. I would have done the same if it were anyone else".

"Bullshit Ava, you and me both know you wouldn't have acted the way you did with me last night with anyone else. That's why you like to be around me babe you get to be yourself".

"I'm not doing this" Turning my back on him I headed for the bedroom not realising he was right behind me. "Truth hurts darlin' but that's exactly what it is the truth. You want me Ava just as much as I want you, nobody will ever make you feel the way I do and you know it. Give in to that temptation darlin' stop fighting it and just let it happen".

"I told you I wasn't doing this". How he had managed to back me into a corner I will never know. I wanted to hate myself because he was right. My body was on high alert, I wanted to feel I wanted to forget. "Take me home now".

Backing away from me a laugh fell from his lips "We'll see how much longer you can resist me. You think I don't know you want nothing more than for me to haul your ass onto that bed and fuck you until you're screaming my name. How your squeezing your thighs together because the ache between them is becoming to much. How those little cheeks are rosey because your flushed" Wetting his lips he stood right in front of me "I'm a patient man baby I ain't got a problem with waiting".

"What you really mean is you'll fuck anything with a pulse until my guard slips and you'll swoop right in?. Can't keep your dick in your pants for 5 seconds. I won't sleep with you Blaze, never again. My guard slipped in the past but it won't again. I say things without thinking but I've never been more clearer than when I told you I didn't want you. You're no good for me and I deserve to be happy, I want to be happy". I had no idea why I was crying "Let me be happy" I croaked

"I'm sorry darlin' please don't cry Ava. I hate when you cry sweets" Lifting his hand he cupped my face tilting my head up "Does this guy make you happy?" He whispered wiping away my tears. Nate made me happy but being with him made me feel guilty. Every time I looked at him I couldn't help but think of Blaze. Being with Nate wouldn't help anything it would cause more hassle than I wanted. "There is no other guy" I whispered knowing once I left here today I had to call things of with Nate.

"I'll take you home" He said placing a kiss on top of my forehead.

This couldn't be right.

"So what do you say?" The real estate agent asked leaning against the kitchen counter a sly grin on his face. This is what my morning had consisted of. Searching for a house, sadly the only ones half decent were still in this town. It was a beautiful house more than what I hoped for but something was off.

"You're not going to get another apartment at this price Miss Mendez".

"That's just the thing. Why is it only $650 a month? Is it going to fall apart as soon as I sign the lease?" I wanted this house, I knew as soon as I walked through the front door I had to have it but $650 was cheap far to cheap for a 2 bedroom apartment, build in ensuites in both bedrooms, a toilet upstairs and downstairs, a front and back garden, a fairly sized living room with an open space kitchen. No I smelled a rat. "Its the price the owners asking for. Its a great house Miss Mendez it would be a shame if you passed up on it".

"Who's the owner?" I asked "And why is he asking for so little? Like you said its a great house. A house worth a lot more than $650 a month".

"I can't disclose that information but I can tell you you won't be disappointed if you take it. The house has not long been refurbished everything you see is brand new. The neighborhood is quite and its only walking distance from the shopping mall. Would you like sometime to think?". It all sounded perfect to perfect. Something wasn't right and the price threw me off. Don't get me wrong I wanted to sign on the dotted line and move in immediately but my gut feeling stopped me.

"Did my dad put you up to this?" I asked knowing if it wasn't my dad then it had to be Blaze. Let's just say my dad wasn't happy with my decision to move out. It was too dangerous for me to be living alone, he liked me close so he could keep an eye on me. He didn't get that I needed my own space, didn't realise I was un happy living at the clubhouse. Then of course he tried to force me into taking his house, told me it would be safer because I'd always have someone with me. I didn't want one of his merry men coming by everyday to check in on me. I wanted my own space, somewhere I could come home to at night and not have to worry about people having sex it my bed, somewhere I could walk around naked if I wanted to. Somewhere where I could finally call home.

"Sorry Miss Mendez I have no idea what you're talking about". Looking at the confusion in his eyes I tried to see if it was genuine or if he was putting it on. My dad knew a lot of people and it wouldn't surprise me if he somehow managed to make this happen. Find me a nice little place at a genuine price and the best one I've came across happens to be a few block away from the clubhouse. If this wasn't my dad then it sure as hell had to be Blaze.