Where We Belong novel (Ava and Blaze) Book 1 novel Chapter 53

Chapter 53

Turning onto my back I hooked my thumbs into my belt loops and attempted to pull my jeans off. Getting them past my bum and thighs was as far as I got before I gave up. " Seriously Cage I-I... What is it I need you for again?" I laughed throwing my arm over my forehead.

"Ava please cover yourself up. Blaze will-.."

"I am covered. Now come and help me up" I grinned moving my arm of my forehead and holding out my hand towards him. Watching him I noticed his eyes move from my face to my jeans and then back to my face. Taking out his phone he dialed a number and then put it to his ear. Sighing I dropped my arm and attempted to get myself up. Pulling the top half of my body up it was then that I realised I had not only pulled my jeans down but my panties had came down with them. So that's why he told me to cover up. Giggling to myself I glanced over to where Cage was stood only he had turned around so his back was to me. The last thing I heard him say before he hung up was "you need to get in here now".

"I know you've seen a pussy before Cage" I laughed noting that he hadn't turned back around. "If you are not going to help me up then make yourself useful and get me another bottle".

"I think you've had enough" Came the rough voice that belonged to Blaze. Of course he would have phoned him. Why do they have to go running to him all the time? "Grass" I hissed sticking my tongue out at Cage. "Wanna come join my party of one?" I grinned trying to get to my feet but failing miserably. Laughing I fell onto my back turning my head so I could look at them. "Why did you have to call him? He'll just ruin my fun" I pouted.

Passing words between each other quietly Cage patted Blaze on the back before leaving closing the door shut behind him. Oh great just what I wanted, to be left alone with Blaze.. Not. Not taking my eyes of him I watched as he glanced around the room his eyes falling into slits as they stopped on his broken t. v. Sinking my teeth into my bottom lip I pulled the top half of my body up and managed to turn so I could get on my knees. Grabbing a hold of my jeans I tried yanking them up but because they were wet they wouldn't budge. Leaning back against the bedroom door he took out his smokes and lit one up. Dragging a hand through his hair he sighed before turning his focus to me. "No need to ask what you've been up to this afternoon". He said letting out a puff of smoke. " Other than killing someone?" I asked grabbing a hold of the bed frame and pulling myself to my feet. He was ruining my buzz, I needed more alcohol. As if he could read my mind he slide the lock on his door. Glaring at him I crossed my arms over my chest. Walking towards me he gripped my jeans and pulled them up causing a cry to fall from my lips. Why did he have to be so rough? "You're soaking. What the fuck have you been up to?" He asked letting me go so he could slip his cut off. Pulling his jumped off he slipped it over my head. "You're going to catch the fucking cold" He growled placing his hands back on my jeans and pulling them down along with my soaked panties. The cold was the least of my worries. Taking a hold of the bottom of his jumped I pulled it down properly so it was covering my bum. "Lift you feet" He snapped. Placing my hand on his shoulder I lifted one foot and then the other. Watching him stand he threw my wet clothes into his washing basket.

"Why are you being so moody?" I asked my buzz disappearing as fast as it came. Now I was left with a moody Blaze and a thumping headache. Was he angry because I was drunk? Or maybe he was angry because Cage saw me half naked. And yes he was giving me the silent treatment. I didn't care all I wanted was another drink and maybe something a little stronger to make me feel better. Shrugging my shoulders I side stepped him and made my way for the door. Being out there has got to be better than staying in here.

"Not a chance in hell are you going out there in just that. In fact you're not going out there at all" He growled storming towards me causing me to take a step back. Not being able to help it the laugh fell from my lips. "You don't scare me Blaze. So take your caveman act somewhere else". Twisting the lock I had my hand on the door handle ready to pull only to be lifted off the ground and thrown onto his bed. "You can't do this" I yelled balling my hands into fists wincing as the pain shot through my right hand. Bringing it into eye sight I noticed my knuckles were all burst open and I had a nasty cut on my palm.

"I owe you a mirror as well as a t. v" I muttered running my finger over my knuckles. Sighing I crawled up his bed so I could rest my head against his head board. Taking a seat beside me he took my hand in his examining it. "Doesn't look like you need stitches but they do look pretty nasty and swollen. Look Ava I know what happened today was bad and scary but I'm glad you did it because if you hadn't you wouldn't be here and I hate to think what that bastard would have done to you but babe this isn't you" He sighed letting go of my hand. "Getting drunk in the middle of the day, prancing around in nothing but underwear. Heck you made Cage blush for fuck sake".

"He came in at the wrong time"

"He heard a bang and thought he'd check it out. I'll tell you this though it'll be the first and last time he'll ever see you like that. Fucker did the right thing by calling me".

"Oh yeah because the only one aloud to see me naked is you" I huffed rolling my eyes. "Why is my mom at some cabin?" I asked a yawn escaping my mouth. I knew something was going on or going to happen but I wanted to see if he would tell me what it was. "Club business now you get some sleep we're still heading out tonight". Obviously something big if he couldn't tell me. "Vagos have nothing to do with my house" I said as he got off the bed turning to look at me. "That guy made a comment about my daddy buying the house for me so I know it wasn't them".

"Doesn't matter. Get some sleep we'll leave when your not drunk and your feeling better". Just as I was about to say something he walked out the room slamming the door shut behind him.

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Peeling my eyes open I jumped up when I released it was dark outside. How long had I slept? Pulling the covers back I placed my feet onto the floor and got myself up. Holding my head I groaned at how bad I felt. I really needed to stop turning to alcohol to make me feel better. It wasn't worth the way I felt when I woke up.

Flushing the toilet I washed my hands drying the off on a towel that was lying in a heap on the floor. Looking around the room I groaned at the mess I had made. The broken glass from the mirror still lay shattered on the floor along with splatters of my blood. Coming to the decision that I would clean it up later I exited the bathroom. Rummaging through the washing basket I cursed when I found that my jeans were still wet. Only other option I had was to find a pair of Blazes trousers or go out there flashing my ass to the world and I don't think my dad would appreciate that. Rolling his jogging bottoms up at the waist I tied his T-shirt into a knot at the back. If I had to wear his clothes then I at least had to try and make them fit. Wincing as I pulled the bobble from my knotted hair I ran my fingers through it before tying it up into a messy bum. I probably didn't look my best but fuck it if I gave a shit. Opening the door to Blazes room I frowned hearing the loud music coming from the bar area. Don't these people ever have a quiet night?

Making my way into the bar area my eyes landed on the mass of people surrounding me. What the hell was going on? Making my way through I smiled and nodded my head at everyone I passed. Did I want to? No but I also didn't want to be rude. Catching sight of Tommy with two girls sitting on each knee it came to me why the place was packed. Even though Tommy was home and well I didn't feel like celebrating not after the shitty day I had. Managing to sneak past my dad I snuck out the front door. Sucking in the fresh air I passed a few members from another charter smiling as I went. Walking towards my car I jumped up sitting on the bonnet. It was always peaceful out here when there was no one to bother you. Leaning back I placed my hands behind my head looking up at the stars.

If I could be anywhere in the world right now..?

"You seriously want to catch the cold?".

I'd be a million miles away from him...

"Why do you feel the need to sneak up on people?"

"Bad habit darlin'. How you feeling?" He asked leaning against the front of my bonnet his back to me. "Let's just say I won't be turning to alcohol every time I've had a shitty day. I don't know why I put myself through it" I mumbled mostly to myself. "I wasn't talking about the alcohol sweets. How are you feeling with what happened today?". Great something I didn't want to talk about but had to. What was he expecting me to say? 'Yeah Blaze I'm doing great. I feel good after shooting someone in the head'. "How do you think I'm feeling?" I asked moving down slightly towards him. "I can't stop thinking about it, I killed someone" I whispered low enough so only he could hear. I don't know how they did it. How could they go on living knowing they've killed another human being? How did they live with the guilt? Settling his hand on my knee he gave it a little squeeze. "First kill is always the worst. I can remember mine like it was yesterday. Believe it or not sweets but I never used to have the guts to pull the trigger. My first kill earned me my VP patch" He smiled as if playing the scene in his head.

"Is that suppose to make me feel better?" I asked placing both feet on the ground "That the first kill is always the worse? I can't deal with knowing I've killed someone and here you are grinning like a fucking idiot. Honestly how do you look at your self everyday knowing the shit you do?"